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2007-09-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

changed url;
relink please.

http://littlemissexquisite.blogspot.com

goodbye.

2007-09-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

edited part,

to my dearest beautiful boyfriend,
i didnt expect to get any message frm you lastnight. but you did text me.
thanks huney. i still love you as ever oke.
&&i miss you badly. goodness. never seen you so worried. heh.
whatever it is,you dont hafta worry about a thing. (; *
hugs&kisses*

ps;if ure reading this, text me as soon oke.
&&do read my othr special notes left for you.
i lovelove you baby,forever&ever. (;

truckloads of love,
izyan.<3

2007-09-18T15:22:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

today is not my day.

really, its totally heart-rending today. very very. goodness, study hard last night, slept late& woke up early to study. && guess what? what i study didnt came out. pfft.
&&the damn bus, was early. the bus was late. stupitt.stupitt.
oke, i doubt i'll pass history's paper. *sighsigh*
so im left with malay paper 2 & science,lucky its just mcqs. erghh. looking at the empty seat right in front of me, really scares me sometimes not to slack.
`atika, do come & yarh, prelim is important my dear. ((; dont slack2 aite. tkecre.

oh well, everything dont seem right today. the staining, the ache.
oke, will end it here till further updates.

goodbye readers.
-_-

boyfriend, call me.
imy like hell.
damn it.
ure so so needed now. );

2007-09-17T15:47:00.000+08:00

dearestdearest diary.

today was biology & art paper. biology essay was fine. lucky i did memorise the right thing.
as for art, i regret not finishing up 5 SOLID prep work during the weekends. 4 and a half pgs. goodness.

mr anith call us up during our break, he mentioned about the failures. im quite worried laa. and also he called a few names, to have some private talks. and yarh, my name was called up. he said, i didnt wrote down as a result. oke, fcuk.
he also said tht i lost A FEW marks thre. but i aint sure if i failed. i hope i dont.
i really was satisfied with it, *confident laa* wala0.i really want to pass prelims.
pretty please laa.

i dont want to disappoint mama. oh well, if i failed science thre's no need for me to be surprise.
pfftt. damn all these exams.
o levels, two-three-four weeks time.
i really must revise for tomorrow's history paper. MUST MUST. & must not forget 'as a result'.
goodness.

yesterday, mama & papa brought us out for buka.and yes, papa brought us to sakura, at clementi. its really an enclosed place. and its two floor, two floor sakura.&& u can eat whatever you like. woohoo. we reach thre early, and left late. hah. apparently, u can get food at the both stories. heh. guhreat !
i really ate a lot. haha. all the seafood, sushi's, ice-cream, salmons, cakes, chickens.
big-appetite. ((; fuuh. i shall not place any food pictures here laa oke. -_-

irritating brother of mine.
but still lovable though. (;

my mama & papa.
my love.

so yarh. im also done with my batik. after months and months spending my time with this messy batik. i knw, its messy. wala0.

currently tuning to mimpi manis, its really a nice song. hehe.
*stop! engkau mencuri hatiku.*

i miss my super-duper beautiful darlink now.
boyfriend, perhaps i so need you now.
thre's so many things i wna share.
shall meet up soon soon oke.
i love love you baby.

ps; i hate periods.
oke, enough said.

goodbye lovelies.

2007-09-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

dearest dearest diary, im back now.

sorry for the lag of updates. since my computer is repaired, im back blogging as usual now. weee~.
i didnt expect myself to be awake early on a sunday morning. oh wells.
many things have happened lately. and yarr, still on prelims mood.
-socialstudies, studied real hard under industrialisation & restructuring. everything went fine. (;weee. happy enough.
-maths paper over, quite hard to manage laa.
-chemistry, will be the death of me. i hate it. i doubt i will pass. haha. but surprisingly i did study for it oke.
-malay paper one, i was emotional. heh. (; for the karangan and all sorts of emosi was out. hah.

so left with biology, art, history, malay paper 2 and science. i hate science. it suck.

basically there were quite haapy moments i had during the one week break. really enjoyed myself. will show some pictures:

`out with girlfriends.
`out with boyfriend.

shopping with bf was great indeed.
haha. though he have to bear with me. *cerewet* haha. thanks dear for tht yellow dress. i love it. and should have taken a picture when we're in yellow. haha. yellow-sayangs. ((;

yesterday was out with bf. i knw. i shoudnt have to. and i must not. i was suppose to stay at home and revise. oh well, his mum invited me over. and i have my reason. i guess i cant control myself frm going out. mama knew about it. haha. (; told her everything.
and yarr, will be rebonding my hair real soon. myb friday. yeay ! i so cant wait. thanks mama, i love you to bits. hope it will turn out nice. keep me company someone? heh.

have not been doing much things lately. sleeping in the afternoon. and studying a lil in the nights. haha. ohh im so restless and weak laa.

today will all be about art and bio. finished 4 pgs for art. need some touch up and finishing up the last piece. bio, i hate science laa. but i'll try aim at least a pass. if possible.
how i wish my o level is not during hari raya festivals. goodness. i really want to finish all the exam mood off. and there i go, enjoying myself non-stop. heh.
going shopping, spending my lovelife as promised, going on a vacation, i want back my ohh-la-la moments.
so many things, so yar, let time run fast. quick quick. i want to clear o levels with satisfying scores. ((;
saya nak pegi poly cepat-cepat.

oke, will be back to update again.

&& happy fasting to all.

truckloads of love,
izyan.

*craving for deng-deng. hees. ((;

2007-08-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

dearest diary,

sorry for not updating for weeks. computer, broke down lerr. pfft !
ohh wells, many things have happened.
and yarr, hafta really concentrate on my studies.
so far relationship with bf have been going on smoothly, fortunately. ((=

two weeks of not updating. haha.
will update once my computer is fine.
hopefully soon. gawd.
i miss blogging badly lorr.

-training was great. coach was humorous. haha.
-watching his game was fun.
-studying at airport. it was peaceful. (;
-i need to go shopping soon. saving up still.
well, i dont care. i still need free time. cant be studying for the whole day.
((; myb next weekend. weehuu.
i need new clothes.
-thanks gfs for the listening ears.
ive clear things up btw him.
-planned on cutting down in meeting him often. but cant blame me. we still do meet each othr. haha.
cant resist. i miss him laa.
-prelims soon, excessive stress. boohoo. );

replies;

`hidayu: oke, sorry for not updating. ohh, pc break down laa. i see pretty pics on ur blog.
tkecre girl. <3

`helmie: thanks mie, u&hidayu also. veryvery adorable. ((;
tke good care of her oke.

`zalyna:thanks girl. hees. yesyes, u tkecre too sweets. see u ard. (= *hugs*

enough said.

with much love,
izyan<3

i miss everyone.
i'll get back soon.
as soon as possible.

2007-08-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

cintaku.(;
i knw picture not so clear.
ohh well, get me a better camera phone&
thanks.i'll so damn gonna appreciate.

nur juizyan
i do have messy hair.

dear dear diary,

090807
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY.
yesterday was a whole lot of fun. i enjoyed myself really. weee~
firstly, i met up with malah,fahmi&bf at khatib mrt. then we head of to marina. oke, it was a total crowd tht i couldnt stand. gawd. headed to marina square, & yarh. malah&fahmi was in jeans.& while me&dear was in black jeans. lol. cutecute. it was so unexpectedly.haha.
bumped into hidayu,helmie,shahidah,rasyid,ridzwan& a few other girls. okehh, bumped into haikel. ohh well. -_-
finding place to eat was a trouble laa. i wanted to have some fastfood. but instead they went to foodcourt.but it was alright. the fastfood was so packed lorr. except for burger king.heh.
didnt really get to see fireworks.ohh well.nevermind.
slacked around.& took pictures. oke, hidayu&helmie cute sangatsangat.
we lost contact wit malah.&since they wanted to walk themselves. so its alright.well, sorry malah.if we kinda leave u both.
wanted to meet up with nina&shida. but well, everyone had their own place to go. so its alright. headed to esplanade. slacked around.had candy floss.ohh hunney, thanks oke. ily. ure so so adorably sweet. bumped into a few similar faces-people like, miza,mas,rahim,farah&seri,ajul&friends. theyre getting older.lol.haha.zareeza(his ex) ohh wadever~.well, she is pretty, white and everything. stopp it okayy. & it hurts me so much to see boys going ooohh, looking at other girls like *terpegun gtk* when they have their innocent lovely girlfriend by their side. goodness.

ohh gawd.
oke, went back to yishun. had our last mrt. lucky us. ohh well, haha. we had to run up the damn escalator to get our last train. lol.
oke, reached home at 4am. goodness. &amp;& haha. bf,ily.
mum&dad was alright with it.haha. ((; luckylucky sia.

now my legs are aching. and dear, haha. u are so funny. ((= he left me laughing&smiling back home. thou we were kinda in a rush. haha.

i want to go out with hidayu&helmie again.! ((= plus malah&fahmi again!
pretty please. ohh triple date seems to be interesting. haha.

ps;TO MALAH&FAHMI., i apologise oke. i feel bad somehow. ohh sorry again u both.
i guess u both did enjoyd yourselves, somewhere else. much more calming place.

100807

today was damn lazy to go out. well, did homeworks, maths & a lil of bio. haha.
not doing malay. thats it. pfft.computer,stop seducing me please.
somehow, i did went out today. went to library with bf. oke, thanks for accompanying me. i so wanted to get a storybook. to kill this free time, im gonna spend tomorrow&sunday. ohh well, gonna spend my time at aunt's house, due to cousins wedding. but its alright. i love it in fact. i can dress prettypretty.&& look like a princess. haha. stop it izyan. *as if~
okayy, BUT THEN, i cant finish my hw. & i hope by reading books it does gonna help.
wednesday, im gonna have my english oral. goodness, someone save me from this.
im not sure what im up to? still slacking aroung. enjoying and stuffs. not realising abt things.
well, i really have made up my mind. im gonna stop all my lovey-dovey,sacrificed all my enjoyments till o levels end.

`bf, i promise u that once my o levels' over, my daily life will be all about you. okehh.
dont worry okeh hun,my love for you is still strong as ever. i have never been more than glad to have you in my life. u even know, mum is so gonna ask about u, every single day. so im glad tht my parents even allow us being together. you have been a charming&truthful boyfriend.yet kinda clumsy.i cant deny i enjoy every little moments that ive shared with you.
i know. u wouldnt be reading this. but i really hope you will. i love you.
* no more quarelling oke.*

hold my hands & dont let go. hug me like barney hugs. *cuddles&kisses are sweet.

`mum give me some privacy.

replies:

`purpledino; ohh yeaa.its nice. having beautiful friends around you is also nice. (; *winks.

`zalyna; 'replied at your blog.'

`malah; girlfriend,im sorry again oke.date? awesome. but better with u both laa. ohh wells. btw awak&dia comel banget.

enough said oke.
im off for now.

with love.

2007-08-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

hello dearest diary,

today was ENTERPRISE DAY. assembly was the usual thing. the long announcement&hell stories. makes me go ; WHATEVERR. they're totally crapping.
oke, the performance was okayy. i just cant wait to go down & make profit. lol. me,malah&zahidah went around school with basket of cupcakes,donuts,brownies,chocolate cornflakes,cream cake &candies. ohh well, i enjoyed going around repeating the same sentence to people saying; 'hello, would you like to buy? its very sweet. (; 3 for one dollar.'
oke, after the person have bought it. ; 'okayy, thanks. have a nice day.'
ohh gosh. im so being nice laa. haha.
we went a few rounds of selling those and stopped to look around the stalls & get some stuffs for us.we were tired already. had the hotdog cheese.strawberry chocolate.yumyum. i like.brownies& the COKE FLOAT from 3T2. goodness. i was like complaining; 'ehh asl ice cream dah cair.?'
& he still can say; 'alarh, byk songe pulakk. '
hello. we buy for 2bucks oke. haha. funnyfunny.
also had cupcakes from syakirin sec3 class. that cupcakes looks so intresting&colorful. i love the strawberry. its nice i must say. ((;

went to the haunted mansion. okehh, it was kinda shockingshocking laa. a lil scary. & irritating.
irritating due to some girls tht were shouting non-stop. like wth? relax laa. pfft.
i did push some heads of the ghost. lol. not my fault okayy. she/he was the one scarying me. lol.
haha. after everything, got to knw tht the person i pushed her head was NINA. haha. OMG.
im sorry nina. i didnt knw it was u. i was just too afraid. hah. i cant stop jumping&running around lorr.

having to see her at tht stall makes me go pfft ! she loves bitching around with my bf?. okayy, fine. what goes around,comes around u idiot. i hate her. ohh who cares. i knw, bf&i arent those types tht goes around school together & all sorts. but ilh like hell. so getting jealous its not the issue here. well, every girls will get jealous wadd. so dont blame me for hating u.

i have not been letting anyone knows about this feeling of mine. well except for some closeclose gfs, i get pissed sometimes/maybe all the time, looking at bf ignoring me during school&spending time with bestbestfriends. well, who wouldnt?
its alright with me. but i cant be keeping quiet.&he cant be shy?that must not be the reason. but i dont wana this be the big problem. im fine with it still. just wana let it out. (;

was back home early. was damn exhausted. & tired. went out with mum. okayy, i bought contact lenses. weee~. it wasnt part of my plan to get it today. well, thanks mum. ily.

fooboon&atyra seems to be the sweetsweet couple also laa. ohh gawd. (; haha.
tkecre oke gf. u both sweet sangat.

enough said.

im off to sleep now.
yeay~ im out tomorrow.
bf,ily.imy.

truckloads of love,
izyan<3

xoxo

070807<3

2007-08-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

hello dear diary,

070807.I LOVE THE DATE.
OKAYY FIRSTLY. WISHING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEARESTLOVE MAMA. ILY.ILY.ILY. mum, im sorry. ive got no prezzie for you.
but will get them soon im done with my savings. haha.
SAYA CINTA SAMA MAMA SAYA. ((= she's my everything&my listening ears.
sharing secrets about dearest irfan to her is the best thing. thanks mum for all the advices.
<3

ps;dear boyfriend. i understand.i forgive u alrdy. well, its alright.&&thanks for changing just for me.ure sucha beautiful bf.ily hunney.i dont hate u for all u knw. ily so so much. ure the only man standing tall in my heart&thre's no way i want this relationship to end oke.no matter what,love.

horoscope .
any tests or challenges you encounter today should not frighten you.
relax and be confident abt how you'll do. you are in complete control of your abilities,&the outcome is totally up to u. if uve done your hw,prepared to ur best ability,and created a positive visualisation of success, then the outcome will be a very good one. preparation is all you need to focus on,& its not too late to get in some last-minute cramming.! (=

school today was ok-ayy.except im having running nose.IRRITATING LAA SEHH ! ohh gawd, soccer photo taking just now.ohh dear, i hope i dont look horrible, i knw. im having bad hair day. ohh gosh. suckkyy laa.

during poa, went art room to do some batik-work. okayy, apparently i did finish up HALF OF MY BACKGROUND. still a long way to go. gawdd !
the 3t2, was having their lesson thre. oke, we had 2 periods && off. bf was thre. she was looking & staring & glaring at me. okayyy? *confused* she.

tons of hws given. okayy, i hafta finish them soon. lol. as if. i'll see to that. heh. lazyness strike.&amp;amp;& computer&hangouts will start seducing me. haha. thats when my assignments will be delayed. ohh goodness.2-3 wks to prelims.

went to watch their training & off back home.had my medicine& rested for a few hours.

tomorrow's enterprise. sch uniform will do for MY tomorrow's attire. well, our stall, sweetlips. do come&visit oke. (= thre will be lots of sweetcandy there. DO COME. (:
;4E8.

replies;

`hidayu: okayy.ive replied at your blog. well, just inform me about ur schedule & all. cause i myself arent sure when im going.lol. tkecre sweets.

*things just takes time to heal. it's always about time.

basically that was it for todays entry.

with much love,
xoxo.

2007-08-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

dear diary,&&
hello beautiful strangers.

okayy, i rotted at home on saturday&sunday. sleeping like nobodies business. yeay !
i was supposed to be out with him. but someone just had it cancelled. but its alright.
ohh to the dearest sweet people who wished me.THANKS ALOT. ily people.

&& look at this :

ps; hidayu dear,
thanks alot for this edited-picture. its really sweet of u,girl.
ily sweetheart.

ohh wells, prelims are soon. its like a months time.

sterwerdesses, they seems to be an intresting job i must say. it realy had caught my attention lorr.
so ive decided, MY AMBITION IS TO BE A STERWARDESS. weeee~

school today was alrightt... dad send me to school. weehuu ! its much easier. haha. & had EXTENDED LESSON.like wth? achievers was supposed to be cancel. just cancel it laa. for goodness sake.bleahh~
crappy. was so damn happy when achvrs was cancelled.but i end up in sch till 3.chemisry lab. oke, had class photo taking.
before my class was dear's class. oke, he look cute. (=
at least he smiled. than some boys, step fierce laa konon.
for the funshot, my class was like so formal. gawd. but its alright. we'll just see the picture soon.
tomorrow will be having cca photo taking. ohh for soccer mates, bring green jersey. i knw, i'll look so small in it. cause its like XXL for me. ohh who cares. pffftt!.
enterprise day.2 days time. still undecided, red&white or just uniforms. lol. we'll see to that.

`replies:

hidayu;thanksthanks. appreciate it. lol. sweetsweet of u laa. ((=
*hugs*

zalyna; ohh thanks sweetheart for the wishes. ly. *hugs*
tkecre pretty !

corrine;ohh thanks sweets. (=

enough said.
a pretty much random updates.im plainly lazy now.
im off. i need to meet dear now. *winks*

goodbye lovelies.♥

2007-08-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

ohh sch was pretty well. yesterday had dinner outside. oke, was back home late with family.sleepy.-_-

dad: kalau nur kahwin, papa sewa helicopter okay?
me: hurh? hhhahhha.lol. okehh. weee~
(prince&princess in a helicopter) oohh, sweet nyerr.

whoa. helicopter is totally a great vehicle. lol. for a wedding laa. its really damn UNcommon lorr.

schools.
we are doing mindmapping for history+social studies. ohh well. for me, its a damn good idea. so we are able to start our revisions soon&&faster. i hope.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATHIRAH. (=

&& TO MY SWEETHEART GIRLFRIEND, SYAIRAH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE.WEEE~ ITS TMR. I KNW. all the best&& lucks for o lvls.stay pretty&smart.&&gorgeous my dear. since nina is our little miss chatterbox. ure our little miss busybody. lol. orr shall i say, little miss cheerful. lol.
oke,do tkecre.&& the past is the past,just plan for the future. ohh whoa, sucha a motivation?! heh. i miss LIYANA&DANIAL okayy.
my friends all reachng sixteen. when's my turn?? haha.
love you gf. missed those 'study-days' at ur house.

yours sincerely,
juizyan/

art was fine. was alone at first. &&accompanied by some 4n&5n girls.
hidayu&helmie.cutecute. zalynah&izwan. sweetsweet. (= couples in sch. haha.
then nina came. oke, she helpd me with the backgrds. left with colouring it up. && some left over designs. and im done. then will hafta focus on my prep work. ohh so little time, so much things to do.
not sure if im going art tmr. i'll see to tht.

i was pissed at this very moment. but i'll try to control this emotions all through me. cause it was suppose to be a happy gagagegeggugu day. so i cant blame it if thre's gonna be a little tiff. im sorry.
ps; i so cant wait for friday to ends. but nw, i so cant wait for wed to come.
i was to enthusiastic i guess. sucky.

replies:

`liyana; oke, i'll try make it. tkcre.and lucks aite.hope everything will go on smoothly (=

`nurul; ohh thanks sweets. much appreciated.

`zalyna; ohh yarr. hees. u&& izwan looks so good together. sweetsweetcouple laa. ((=
all the best oke, tkecre pretty. do tag me often.

enough said.

&& not forgetting to hunniest bf;

imy.imy.imy.
its our 2nd month♥ tmr. and i'll make this sacrifices the best one.
its fine. i understand. i cherish what ive got. `thanks for everysingle thing.
i love u to bits.*hugs&kisses*
irfan cintaku, saya kecewa sama kamu.
tapi gue masih sayang banget sama kamu.

with love,
izyan.♥

2007-08-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

hello dear diary,

firstly. i wana wish my dearest dearest sweet girlfriend darling,NINA!♥
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY! sweetsixteen hurh? gue jealous banget.
takecare oke. & treasure him. i knw u love him much. i knw. well, lucks for o lvls girl.&& stay pretty& chatty my girl.
i love you, gf.
ALL THE BEST OKE. cintaku♥ . (=

yours sincerely,izyan.

apparently sch was as per normal. `naggings from principals. && the long announcement was made. till it takes up 1 plus period. gosh.
ohh sch boys&girls. they're having so much fun, gg sch together with friends.meeting up early in the morning. they seems to be more relaxed&all.im jealous.

well, we just gotten our prelims schedule. ohh sucky.
prelims , soon. must be pretty much ready. ohh revisions,revisions? when shall i start?

as for schs, malah was wanted, to see auntie gwen. like wth? she was said to be smoking? ohh gawd. CRAPP SIAA. walao. accusing people anyhow.!
tht news shocked everyone. yesyes. lol. they're innocent for goodness sake. && please despicable girl, dont accuse people. we didnt bother u, so why should u bother us.
asses.

i couldnt stop laughing during art lesson. lol. singing hero. - perasan, & perasaan.
haha. gfs bear with the craziness okeh. haha. mr selvam did mention abt my shoes. oke, who cares. well, i need to keep myself away from the witch. so tht i wont be caught.

after sch, head back home early. straight home. oohh bumped into natasha. pretty grown-up girl. ((=

head to amk hub. oke, nina prezzie found.& i got myself a blouse. weee~
(=

okayy, reach home at 8 plus. well, i love to shop, every now & then. need more savings now. lol.

gotta run,its a short update. calling bf nw. i miss him. its been days since we talk. lol.
gue sayang banget sama kamu.♥
saya cinta sama kamu.♥
saya juga rindu banget sama kamu.♥

truckloads of love,
izyan.♥

2007-07-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

oh dear dear diary.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ZIELLA ! GIRL, stay happy okeh, and lucks for 0 level aite. takecare. see u around sweet.

oke. im had a tiff with him. & its so agitating. i feel so bad now. its been 3 days since we last talk to each other, except through sms. in sch, we rarely talk to each other too. i so miss him.

today sch was so pathetic.++ BORED. ohh gosh, i was supposed to be more motivated.
well, listening to the hero song realy moved me. touches me so badly.
not much to update in fact.

today was like my most normal day. was back home early. okay, today was crappy. i hate science. tht's it.

i knw, this is sucha short entry.bear with it oke.

yesterday, was pretty much exciting i must say.
`yeay ! i bought black jeans. weee~ haha. its been quite a long time since i wantd tht lorr. now i want tht black skirt. i want it, i want it.
mum&dad have been planning. yesyes. i cant wait for o's to end. & i'll invite as many friends to sleep over, boys&girls party. ((= i dont care.

& i so wna watch the movie alone. & rush hour3. gfs,lets watch movie soon. (= haha.

basically that was it for todays entry.

i gotta run. need to finish up homeworks.

with love,
izyan.♥

ps; my super-duper beautiful boy, im sorry.
please care& pamper me like u used to.

2007-07-28T14:10:00.000+08:00

oh dear diary ♥,

its been days since i last updated. well, have been busy in sch with motivational programmes. for straight 3 days. from 8am-9pm. its a very useful workshop i must say.

first day, was all about laughing&laughing. knowing strategies & goals.all the jokes&fun. from gary&gerald,our trainer. they're cute.with the patrick's voice. and dumbdumb faces. haha. its really funny. i enjoyed it. (=

second day, was much more emotional.& thre's alot of drama. the crying part made me realised how much my parents mean to me now. & when gerald, our trainer told us about his story, about his grandmother. it was quite sad. i tried to control myself from crying.but i couldnt. esp when we was asked to close our eyes, and imagine things. what if our parents werent thre for us anymore?
ohh gawd, i couldnt take it alrdy.most of the sensitives girls was bursting into tears alrdy. well, girls are girls. we cant possibly deny our sadness.
the song hero, and child really means alot now. thou its sentimental. now it seems that this motivational really is good. im really satisfied.

third day, was all about doing mindmaps. and leaving. (= their talks& stories also made me realised tht everyone have their bad memories& still hafta take it as an experience. if u still haf ur parents, count urself lucky. (:
we had kfc, thanks to ms khoo. well, we got third for racial harmony. so yarr.
the closing ceremony, girls started to tear again. its really saddening.
we have to leave. its like we're graduating. singing sch song for the last time.
there were this part when parents came down. & childrens were allowed to go up to the stage and pour out every single thing tht they wana say. it real touching. & i did cried. looking through my schmates. thou they're not as close. i feel the sufferings. esp when amin, the other groups trainee, told us a story about this normal technical student, who made her mom came to sch, as she wantd to pour out her feelings. but unfortunately, her mom wasnt as touchd, she then said, " u wantd me to come just because of this? ". well, its real sadd. her mom didnt even treasure a word she said.
well, saying all this in front of a whole lot of people takes a lot of pride and courage. i really was proud of student who went up.

these three days, made me realised now. it really have wake me up tht o levels are important.* its not as easy. we will be competing with not only our schmates, but also the whole spore. and whatsmore, its not easy for us to achieve our goals. if we do not have high self-esteem.
choices have consequences.
thanks to gary,gerald, and woeitang. they really have open up my mind. & the all the scoldings. jokes. & shared their real experiences.

replies;

`ziella: hehe. yesyes. im growing. (=
& yea, motivational workshop was useful kan? ♥ well, hope we can graduate together. and able to leave sch next yr. ((=

`malah: ah'uh. aku tk nk bbl ngn kamu. hmmph. tklaa. (= psst. hope ure more motivatd now girl. dan awak&dia cute banget. =D

yesterday night, met bf for awhile. and back home. he send me up. thanks. and yarr. didnt thought he'll get so sensitive. well, better not mention.

hero

thre's a hero if you look inside ur heart.
you dont hafta be afraid of WHAT YOU ARE.
thre's an answer if u reach into ur soul.
& the sorrow tht you knw will melt away.

And the a HERO comes along
wit the strength to carry on.
and you cast your fears aside
and you knw you can survive

so, WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE HOPE IS GONE.
LOOK INSIDE YOU&BE STRONG.
& you'll finally see the truth.
THAT A HERO LIES IN YOU.

its a long road wen u faces the world ALONE.
no one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
you can find love♥ if u search within urself.
and the emptiness you felt will DISAPPEAR.

♡ DREAMS ARE HARD TO FOLLOW.
BUT DONT LET ANYONE TEAR THEM AWAY.
HOLD ON, THRE WILL BE TOMORROW. ♡

goodbye lovelies ♥.

i am eveything i am because u loved me.

2007-07-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

hello.

dear diary,

apparently schools was fine. i love the weather nowadays,its raining almost everyday. its more cooling& yarr,i need sweater wherever i go.sweaters&umbrellas.its much more better, than humid& warmness days.
well, yesterday sch was alright i must say. except lessons was total boredom.
as for today, received back our maths test. hell, ive done badly lorr. its badly done. gosh. i failed.

tomorrow till friday will be on our 'MOTIVATIONAL WORKSHOP', and its going to take up our whole day, its like from 8am - 9pm. at night? &wtf.
i thought it'll end at 5 at least. ohh gawd, teachers said tht student loved the workshop. but gfs& i wonder what are we going to do for the whole 3 days straight. it'll sure be totally boring. seems like i really haf to bear with it.

went art just now. manymany people. ((= i see prettypeople ard.
okeh, great. accidents do happen, my batik, destroyed. gawd, lucky ive done design on it. pfft ! socializing with each other is a must. esp when it comes to schmates. lol.

oke,perhaps he doesnt care. boohoo. it seems tht i hafta spend my day at home tonight. not going out. prelims soons, and whatsmore our o levels. gawdd, im not even sure if im able to make it.

i have not been taking good care of my skin & hell, its getting bad lorr.i really need to do something, before it gets worse. have been looking through facial products. but arent sure which suits this skin of mine. its really difficult. im so so worried. sometimes i even feel so embarassed, having this pimples around. i mean girls do take goodgood care esp of thier faces , as for me. i dont. well, i MUST NOW.
*just do not tegur*

we sat there,
as time goes by.

we sat there,
watching through kids playing.

we sat there,
eyes tired & beds calling us.
*but still nothing beats esp when spending quality
time with him even if its a mere one or two hour.
i still enjoy& love every minute of it.
i can never get bored of him.*

we sat there,
sharing about schs&problems.

we sat there,
thinking.

we sat there,
talking& staring at each other.

we sat there,
tickling each other.

we sat there,
smiling,giggling&laughing.

we sat there,
loving each others speciality.

we sat there,
looking through stars&moon.

we sat there,
pondering over things.

we sat there,
chatting&joking with each other.

i love you.
mr irfan.

oke, giggling with gfs was fun. i like. if my name was manja. im sure i'll be so pampered. lol. i enjoy time with dearest gfs.

replies;

`malah: ure sweet. =D and we got same scores for maths hurh. badbad. very disappointing laa sehh. tkecre. tag more often aite. (=

im jealous to see couples around, gg sch together.& stuffs.

basically that was it.
for todays entry.

goodbye lovelies.

with love,
izyan.

racial harmony day.

2007-07-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

oh hello diary,
thre's pictures&stories.

my fridays.

pictures for you.

(not in any order.)

my love.&
my bestbest listeners.
malah.izyan.nina.

my girls.
we laugh & gossip together.

smile everyone.

the 2e7s.

nicholas&izyan.

nicholas&i. was feeling exhausted&damn tired alrdy.

my lovely class.posing hurh.

isnt she sweet? nina&me.

the 2e7s.

4e8 girls.

class photo. memoirs.

nigel. similar colors. ((=

pretty weiling&me.

me&malah. she's so adorable.

zulaiha&me. i feel short. lol.

racial harmony day, woke up late.lol. but lucky, i was still able to catch up, & nina's dad send us. haha. taking car was much more better. much comfortable. thanks nina. =D was nearly late. when reachd sch, i was so so embarassed. haha. somehow. i wore peach punjabi with heels shoe.as shown in pictures. & yarr, i hope i didnt overdressed, somewhat. well, girlfriends look extra pretty today.& in fact the rest look extra pretty too. even my form teacher. ms khoo, she's gorgeous lorr. shall i say everyone look extra pretty.
nina look like a princess. malah was damn damn adorable. shida, was sweet. with the lime-green.
haha. okayy, everyone look great ok. hema, u are so gorgeous lorr. greengreen.

took pictures, & yarr, class was all busy taking pictures with each other. haha. had some lessons, but i wasnt really concentrating. lol. adik look so cute lorr. with her hair tied tht way. (=
well, the concert wasnt satisfying i must say. it was so bored& pathetic. very pathetic. the songs was all irritating & old laa.
the dance was lol. expected a better performance. not much students wore. even the principal didnt wore. well, its alright.

was busy taking&snapping pictures. all thanks to zahidah. haha.
okayy, head straight home. was feeling damn hot, & my legs. i cant take it alrdy lorr.
went back to sch at 3, to watch boyfriend soccer match, it was a friendly game with sembwg sec.
well, it was a draw. 4-4. haha. lol. gf was crazy. & yarr, arif was good. & my dearest keeper, was awesome. i didnt bother what people comment. but he did his best lorr. cant possibly blame him. okayy, sweet couples. haha. gfs bringing water for their bf. and all that loveydovey things. haha. i find it cute laa. im *jealous*. haha. -_-

went back home& off to night study. was SUPPOSED to finish my maths hws. BUT i didnt. was busy talking&chatting&gossiping. haha. end up gg home doing nothing. except i got special tutor from mr anith. haha. (= thanks cher. (: u rawk.

meet bf and head back home.saw fifi, okehh, she's so cute lorr. was late back home.
(:

just randomly updating ok-

saturdays.

the escalator.

our slacking outfits.

mrs irfan.

shidah.<3>
went out to have lunch with family. & rchd home at 3. when shid text me to go out. it was a last minute plan lorr. & i so wantd to go out. just window shopping will do,perhaps.

okayy, aftr window shopping.
thre's lots of things added to my wishlists.lol.
we first went junction8, just to have a lil look at hows mates are doing. haha. well, had henna done.its pretty, thanks to hema.=D walkd around, and time check, 630pm.
everyone complains; "its still early to go home laa."
& yes. i so agree with gfs.that is; shida,malah&zahidah. we then head to marina square. ohh gosh. can u just imagine? i thought we were just to go to junction 8, i wore damn slack lorr, cause i didnt expect us to go marina square. lol. haha. but it turn out that we went marina. well,nobody gonna like critisized what we wear.haha. i dont bother.
ohh gawd. but it is so funny still.
bumped into quite a few schmates&friends.
shahidah,matin,huda,fadlina,shahid, din,lisa&bf. haha.

head back home.
& met bf for awhile. oke, he's off early. and rchd home earlier. even mum was shockd. lol.
oke, shudup mummy.

sundays.

cousins came to house at night.
i love smallprettyadorableskids.
sweetie-pie.
(the picture quality arent tht good,i knw)

~tht ustad was cute&funny.
rotted at home. finishd up maths assignments. & sleeps.im loving my sleeps now. here i am blogging. bored at home.
im so in lurve with the song; beautiful girl. i hear it repeatedly. haha.oke, but it seems tht maybe its better if its chgd to beautiful boy. lol. pretty intresting hurh.

replies;

`hidayu: hm, okayy. yeaa, we dont really go sch together. & go back home together. just meet at night&stuffs. lol. yeaa, bahasa baku. its damn kekok. haha.dont be, just calm oke.best of lucks. & thanks. :D ure pretty too. & i heard 20 july was ur 2nd monthsary, well. happy 2nd month anniversary then. may u both last till eternity. tkecre oke. sweetsweet couples.

`syairah: our friendship? hm, ntg's wrong i guess. myb im getting emosi nowadays.hah. yea, i miss it too girl.

`atika: im busy. but thanks. i will always update when im free. & u look extra pretty on racial harmony girl. (=

okayy,im off. i need to go call my boyfriend now. imh. :D mysayangsayang.

goodnight lovelies.

with love,
izyan.<3

2007-07-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

with love together.

picture taken on 070707

just shocked. lol. candid okehh/
picture taken on 070707

i love this picture somehow. they seems to my bestest listeners.

a not so long ago picture. ((=

my dear diary,

my day today was randomly bored&pathetic. i was late for school again. its the bus fault. not mine. heh. i was early. the bus was late. waited for the bus at 7.10am. early okayy. lucky it was just warning. no detention. very very lucky. had PE, we played tennis. yeay. fun fun. & ms ng taught me how to hit the ball. lol. it was funny. i cant. i cant do it perfectly.

school was okayy, perhaps. had normal lessons& free time. ate kfc after school. treat from art teacher. (: wh0a, its been quite a long time since i last ate fastfood. gfs was in a crazycrazy mood. laughlaugh&laugh. hah. met boyfriend for awhile and left home. he had something to attend to. (: so its alright.

im home early today.& yes, i need rest& sleeps.
gotta get some nap now.
what an entry? i knw. will updateMORE soon.

& i really hope much more people will wear their ethnic costumes.& look great tmr.
get extra pretty tmr girls. (: ohh gawd,i hope it woudn't be so so embarassing.-_- haha.

replies;

`ella: ohh thanks girl. (= tkecre.

`malah: im not fierce. ure more fierce than me okayy. im nice. haha. ((: i love disturbing MALAH. haha. okehh, tkecre cute. &malah, tag more often.

`hidayu: ohh thanks for tagging girl. susah nk nampk i&irfan? in sch? or wadd? (:
my oral was okayy laa.it was kinda bad too.gees. mine was in sch. how bout urs?

goodbye lovelies.

with love,
izyan<3

2007-07-18T16:08:00.000+08:00

ohh hello dearest readers,

to dearest nina, happy one year anni. i knw its tomorrow, just in advance k girl. may you&him be forever. till eternity. im so jealous. lol. -_- tkecre sweets.

i was late for school. bad hurh? its not like im always late lorr. & offence slip was crappy. school was okayy. everyone was busy asking&borrowing costumes for racial harmony. lol. its so funny. well, hema will look nice& gorgeous laa.
but im kinda shy to wear laa. haha. well, it'll be kinda embarassing though. gawd.
had a talk about saving money. ohh its great. (; a talk from this canada man. he's funny& he's talk is so entertaining. not as bored as i thought. he thought us ways to save& yarr. its great lorr. we left sch, and head home. okayy, im tired.

im gonna haf night study tonight.
ohh yarr, n level oral today. gdlucks for all. well, i have been through it. i knw exactly how friggin nervous& scared i was. ohh just dont remind me. its done anyways.

& will be meeting boyfriend tonight. i miss him. okayy, everything went alright perhaps.
shall i say, bestbest friends are hard to find. but good& sweet ones are easy. especially if those who just take advantages on you. ohh gawd. thats bad hurh/

okayy, i'll gotta run. need to rush.
& off to sch.

goodbye.

i hate pimples. goshh.
nobodies perfect.

2007-07-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

oh dear diary,

its been days since i last updated.

lets start with my sundays, it went fine. family bonding. haha. woke up early in the morning. & yeaa, went to jelita in the afternoon. mum asked me to follow, and yess, we got the outfit. & mum ordered the clothes, for cousins wedding. ohh gosh. i cant wait. mine is turqoise blue. its pretty lorr. mum's is orange, and sister's pink. we took orders&measurements. and yess, it'll be ready be end of the month. i so cant wait. ((;
my aunts was all enthusiasticly choosing&deciding the kain batik for me. haha. ohh ifan,my cousin okay, is so damn cute. he's getting effing adorable&round. especially he's cheek. he's already a year old. i love babies&childrens. (:

well, monday was finee, i guess. schools,received our SS TEST, i had A2. ohh thank god. (; really was shocked.then had our malay listening o level in the afternoon. it was telecasted at ria. cool hurh? i was late. reasons, the DPA thingy laa. was rushing, when i realised it was already 415. bathed and rush to sch, had schshoes & hair untied. was so late. reached class, it was held at 5/2. everyone was already sitted, and had received their so called OTAS. the songs made me feel calm. lol. seribu tahun& wait for you. (= after evrything, checked answers. i didnt get similar answers as gfs. ohh pissed. went mcD after that. great !. gfs was making me go gagagegegugu. esp zahidah&atyra. i cant stop giggling&laughing. they were making jokes non-stop. ohh i love hanging with them. had chocolate sundaes. and head back home. bumped into primary schmates. head home, and met boyfriend after that. okayy, i so miss him. but just had no mood. gawd. okayy, shall not mention it.

today.
school was hot& tiring,perhaps. gawd. brought malay costumes for hema. & yess, she look pretty in it. green(; okayy, hema stop the hottie-ness. lol. yes, she's hawt.
she brought some to lend it to me. well, shall i say. im not intrested in any of them? it was nice.but but.. went to her house after sch instead, to survey on others. (: thanks lots hema. i appreciate it. ure so sweet.

had maths test. ohh gosh, probability,vectors&algebra. i hate algebra. it suck okayy. i doubt i'll pass. ms tan: how was the paper? me: *shaking heads* hard laa.
& trust me, i'll fail. if i do pass. it'll be a miracle lorr.

at 3, had art.ohh im doing my designs now. I SO WANT TO FINISH MY BATIK. i must. still working on my background& little much more smaller parts.hah.
nina, dont worry. u still can, okehh dear. just study hard. yeaa, we cant haf anymore enjoy-enjoy. (= *senyum*
lets strive for our ambitions, i wna be a sterwardess. (: or a make-up artist. lol. (:
cita-cita tinggi sehh.

played netball while waiting for other gfs. it was fun. nina,me & malah. great lorr. shootings. lol. netball seems to be a addictive sports. i want to play netball !
boyfriend& takraw. okehh, head to hema house. ohh well, girls chatting not realising time was practically a normal thing. haha. we chat till 8 plus. haha.
will be wearing - for racial harmony. it'll be a surprise. lol. i hope it wouldn't be so hawt&humid.

basically thats it.
& yarr, i hate science. & thats it.

i need to turn in now.
im tired.

goodnight lovelies.

with love,
izyan.

i dont want judge to take him away. please just dont.
*worrying* ):
be fair okayy. ilh. & effin misshim.
my muhamad irfan.

2007-07-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

ohh edits,

im back. just reached home, met bf just now. ohh he's leg is in bad bad condition. yesyes. he can walk, but a lil slow, limping lorr. ilovehim. he've been trying to cut down on smoking. && its a great thing. i really am happy. (; well have been asking him to stop. but cutting down is good enough. at least one per two days.

i so need more sleeps. that damn renovation disturbs my sleeps this morning. & its freaking me & mum up. i just feel like taking dozens of eggs & throwing into their houses. gawd, its damn irritating lorr. i need SLEEPS, come on laa. be more considerate la please. at least do it in the afternoon or something laa. ergh.

and was waiting for the bus just now. but it just speed through, passing me & dear. ohh it pissed me off. but the bus did brake&stop. &when i aboard the bus. i did said : thank you. ( like thanks for stopping laa,im being so considerate lorr&thankful) && that damn bus driver, just stare at me with that annoyed face . like wtf? hello, ure a bus driver okayy. & taking passenger is your job. & what's with that fcuking face. seems so unsatisfy with things. ohh gawd.

i shall stop here.
goodnights lovelies.

ilovemyhoney.

2007-07-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

oh my dearest diary,

yesterday night movie was awesome. really.watched HARRY POTTER, (= very satisfying i must say. i'll rate it, 8/10. hermoine & ron is so so cute. lol. we finished everything at 11plus. reached home before 12. (: ohh we had popcorns, it was just the four of us. athirah,nina,zahidah&&me. okayy, i was kinda late. haha. ohh wells, i was suppose to go for my night-self-study, but i didnt. was plainly lazy laa. & didnt haf the mood. hah. chit-chat with mum, about sch&family. well communication is important. stories about bf, and dad. (; haha. i love my mummy.
on the phone with bf last night, ohh great. he's voice is so damn weakly heard. haha. he hafta wake up at 6 & he stills wana accompany me till im sleepy. lol. he's so funny& sweet. ilh.

my body is starting to ache. i think its due to PE lessons, after weeks of not much exercises. haha. perhaps. i love weekends. seriously, it makes me go ohhlala. (; no works, no waking up early. no trantrums. no carrying heavy bags. no need to face irritating teachers. haha.
well, basically. im not sure if im going out today. want to, but bf is having some activities at east coast.

about the poly thing, im still so unsure about it. ohh wells, i dont think im watching goal2. okayy crap. bf not accompanying me. he's injured for now. moody-ness strikes me. and gosh, its irritating.
im off later, to meet bf. sending some foods. gawd. mummy cooked nasi lemak. and yesyes, im sending to him. lol.
i want to be the sweetest girlfriend. (:

replies;

`hidayu: ohh thanks sweets. ur batik was shown to our class during art ; the salt effects, & its nice. (:

`atika: yeaa, maybe. friday the thirteen. ohh gawd. (: its sickening.

thats it i guess.
goodbye readers.

i gtg now.

with love,
izyan.<3

2007-07-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

oh hello lovelies.

school was a DISASTER. i hate it. teachers nowadays are being so biased & making students lost interest in everything.esp discipline teachers. gosh. i was asked to take off my shoes. like wth/ okehh. of course i rebelled. like hello. i cant possibly walk around sch with my socks.& she could just allow me to wear it for a day. & i'll changed it on monday laa. cant tt be accepted.? i was like early for sch. & SHE screwed everything up. making me pissed. ohh thanks. i had to go back home, changed my shoes and return back. it was rather dumb. & uber shitty. i hate it laa. so so freaking pissed. if i can kill her, i will. for goodness sake. she can just give me the first warning wadd. and dunt hafta make a BIG DAMN FUCKING FUSS. & when i retuned sch. class werent there. ohh gawd. so i'll hafta spend my time&DAMN ENERGY. to find my class around the sch. fcuk.
school was bearly sucky&shitty. really. had no mood for recess. stayed in class instead. & yeaa.
malay lesson was fun. gf was cracking jokes, we played memories. it was fun. (; ohh pranking otha's was a great thing. lol.
*i cant stop cursing&cursing&cursing her*
she wasnt as nice laa. in fact, she's like a mother witch in our sch.or shall i say, auntie?
crappy laa. friday doesnt turn out nicely i guess.

okehh, im watching harry potter today. weee~ with my two girlfriends. it will be at 8.50pm show. & before tt i'll be going to my night-self-study. im sure it'll end late at night.
still persuading bf to accompany me watch goal2. ((;

till here. i gotta run.and get things ready. im still here blogging. when i actually haf to attend sch later at 630. ohh gawd. im still not ready. just got off from my bed actually. haha. im sleepy.-_-

goodbye readers.

with love,
izyan.<3

u dont hafta be famous to live in this world.
(;

2007-07-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

malah.zulaiha.hema.and me.
okehh, after the dimsum dollies. (;

my batik.its in a big mess.yesyes.
still under process okayy.

my batik. its messy, i knw.
sucky laa.

dearest diary.

today school was sucha shit. i didnt bring my thermometer. &we hafta pay like 0.20cents. ohh gawd. how lame can it get.? morning assembly was draggy&crappy. really. checking temperature.& stuffs. tt teacher was like forcing tt damn ear thermometer into my ears. sucky.cant she wait? gosh. irritated laa. lucky,hema made me laugh. non-stop k. haha. with her lame+crappy jokes. &its making my cheeks hurt. lol. hema funny laa. ((;

during pe, we played tennis. great. IT WAS FUN LAA SEHH. haha.me&syairah. dropping balls. and hitting was great. haha. suicide was tired. & whatsmore im wearing my pumps. lol. should haf wore my shoes.
art, just did my design. okehh, i need more designs. (; pretty angels.
during english, we watched harry potter. yay ! great. staying in the library makes me go ohhlala. i so enjoy the aircon. gagagah. ((=

had english achievers.okayy, gossiping abt otha's was our usual thing. (; so we so enjoy them. haha. we are damn kaypoh l0rr.
met bf after tt, and yea. here i am blogging. i really really wna watch GOAL2. haf been persuading bf to accompany me. i dunt care if he wna bring he's friends along. (; i dunt mind. *smile* pleaseplease dear.

okayy basically that was it,my sch day.

chit-chat with dear was crazy. we was like talking malay. the 'baku' way. as if we're practicing oral. haha. using awak,saya,anda. & he still entertains my craps. lol. i cant stop laughing&giggling. it was fun though.nur juizyan love md irfan. the haram part was irritating. haha. he knws what im talking about. we both are all crazy. lol. i love him. (; thanks so much darl. okayy, im jealous when he talks abt HERs.

`girls staring at me.? hello, stop finding fault okayy. some losers. pffft. -_-
whatever laa~

with love,
izyan.<3

2007-07-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

dear diary.

ohh i need sleeps now. im back home early tdy. and will hafta attend sch. my night study at 6. & i'll be off. great. DPA: Direct Poly Admission. still finding&deciding on a course. ohh gawd.

my choices;

`temasek poly
-retail management.
-apparel design&merchandising.
can i be a designer? ((:

-law&management.
lawyer perhaps.

-hospitality&resort management.
-leisure&resort management.

`republic poly
-hotel&hospitality manegement.

`ngee ann poly
-tourism&resort management.
bringing tourist around. guiding 'em. (;

& i need guidance from the experience people.
& im unsure if im even able to make it to poly. ohh gosh. i so need to wake up.
this is totally killing me. im not fully recovered. still having somethings stuck on the throat. this feeling is damn sucky. and great. sch was fine. laugh&laugh. (= great l0rr. and yarr, our desert dollies. cute hurh?
our store name. ((; replaced by the dim sum dollies. we hafta dress up like them. haha. lol. no laa. it'll be disasterous. if we were to dress like them. im so not gonna do it.
ART. my batik. took pictures. and yeaa, i feel that its so damn messy. esp the borders. & im gonna add the cheetah's skin into it. yesyes. the colours are so damn limited. and so not colourful. how i wish i could use paints.
had nasi lemak for recess. (; its great. sch was going smoothly. & the day wasnt so humid&warm. its finee. (; & it rained. yeaa.

people nowadays love living in guilts. doesnt matter the wrong they've done.
just going through lives as if thing were as fine. ohh people. hypocrites.& this suck even more.
nobody can be trusted right/. but sweet fine people are to be trusted as how satisfying they seems. gah. im crapping.
the 'macam paham' people. what's clubbing like hurh?

i gotta run now.
goodbye readers.
loves,
izyan.<3

i need free time.& i miss him.
my dearest irfan. *hugs&kisses*

2007-07-10T16:55:00.000+08:00

deardear diary,

im down with fever still. still recovering.feeling so weak&restless. and yarr, syairah was here. she came to give me my homeworks. THANKS LOTS girl. much appreciated.

having FIRST position for maths test is an honour. gawd. didnt expect it either. thank god. ((;
well, its just my luck. & graphs are easy. this is just the beginning. its not as if, i can possibly top in my otha subject. still need to work hard. =D but im still happy. ms tan is a very good maths teacher i must say.

2 tests i didnt took.& i guess, im gonna haf difficulties catching up with them. -_-
haisyoh. its sucha blessed having FRIENDS that is so gonna be PROUD OF U when uve done something GREAT. && not JEALOUS of U. okehh, im being so negative here. just pissed with some people.

well, ive went into this website. http://www.eyeslipsface.com.
it shows ways to solve problems. haha. great. (;

rotting at home for two full days is a crap. AND SERIOUSLY. im so so bored. all i do is eat,take my meds, & rest. but i'll go sleep.& when im awake, mum will ask me to take my dinner,& meds. and rest again. ohh gawd. how better can it get??
schworks are for sure waiting for me. & not forget, the daily tests. gosh.

okehh.
i'll stop here.

goodbye lovelies.

2007-07-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

dear diary.

im having a high fever,sore throat& flu. this is so sucky. i feel so weak. mum brought me to the polyclinic and yeaa, 2 days MC. great. no sch. and im gonna haf problems catching up wit sch works. tts for sure. sickly now.

saturday,
i went to watch DIM SUM DOLLIES, at the esplanade.weee~ it was great. the performance takes up 2 hours.ver funny laa. and its like BEST. VERY SATISFYING SHOW to watch. i give 10/10. heh. we was in our home clothes. & yarr, went back home ourself. girlfriends& i walked ard marina square aftr tt. the white long-sleeved top at newurbanmale was awesome,pretty laa. labelled: prisoners of love. thought of getting it, but they didnt have my size.so its okehh.
met bf after tt, since girls wna go back early. (:

sunday,
NSSL FINALS. okehh, i totally suck. the first game, i played as keeper and yeaa, i was totally blur, & its just dissapointing l0rr.6-0? bad hurh? i feel damn down laa. well, its as if ive shamed myself. with people watching. & yarr, i regret. bf did came. faizal was thre too. & the rest.
the second game, i didnt play. i didnt want to. well, 3-2. we lost. yeaa, tht was it. -_-
went to watch movie, with dear irfan. we watched my wife is a gangster. is was great.i give 9/10. hah.
thou we had problems deciding on a movie.haha. we thought of watching goal2, but its not shown.((; at night, i was already having flu. and slight coldness. feel so weak alrdy. took taxi back home. i seriously cant take it anymore. whatsmore, its drizzling. take my meds, and rest.
boyfriend,i love you. do not let sensitivity&anger tear us apart.

monday,
absent from sch. was really sick& weak. mum, thanks lots. she's really taking good care of me.
i love my mama. (; i just dont have appetite to eat.but bf is asking me to eat yogurt, esp if im having fever.i'll get better& it'll works he said. haha. thanks dear. i will try okeh. =D

basically thats it.
i'll be back blogging again k. when im free&not feeling so weak.
gah. ive taken my meds& need sleeps now.

goodnight.
2 days mc.

i need haircut. i need money. i need to get well soon.`

2007-07-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

my pooh. (;

liyana.

danial.

pretty kids.

my sweetie.

dear diary,

ive been quite busy lately.
*pictures taken yesterday* they were so cheerful& yes. i had fun. they're syairah's cuzzen. they are so adorable. arent they?

well. everything wasnt as well as what it was suppsed to be. i knw. im getting too sensitive over things. the wishing part. and yeaa. not appreciated at all.
this small arguements are freaking me out. & later even the jokes are taken seriously. its so worrying. too much of drama. and i totally hate it.

maybe i should just not get so sensitive, perhaps. but i really cant.

4th july.
went republic poly. and yeaa, im so into it. but ive yet to decide on the courses. maybe tourism&resort. or under sales thingy. it will be fun having a store selling make-ups.(;
& yes, went to meet him. the silence was so unexplainable laa. haisy0h. how i wish it was so fine on that day. it didnt went so well.we fought.? the wishing was so inappropriate,i must say.
he didnt realised i was just pissed. i cant possibly get over my furiousity. when he starts making jokes. and stuff. somtimes im so sure that my feelings for him is still thre. still strong. but is he's? still thre?
maybe i should just heed syairah's advice. boys arent expressive enough. but he was. maybe not now.

5th july.
we went singapore poly. and it was big. i felt damn exhausted. really. bitch was thre. sucky.
then went syairah's hse. back at 12 sharp. late late. i knw.

today. sch was randomly fine. maths. gosh. i didnt believe what ms tan said. and yea. well, i must just wait for monday. when i really get the result for our maths test back. heh. ((;
but if its true. thank god. (;
im gg night self-study today. in sch. and its gonna be at 630. & i really want to do well for my O's. get 14 points. & it'll be the best thing ever. fabulous ehh?
mum&dad wont be around at home tonight. and yes. they'll be back tomorrow aftrnoon. & im not gonna haf a good weekend with them. i getting so busy. strained of time laa shit.
& today i really had a good long chat with MAMA. well, i had to hide frm her due to something. girlfriends knw. heh. and yarr, since its off. i can talktalk&talk. share about sch&bf. (; gagagah.
i love my mama. =D

eyebags. sucky laa. wala0. still not going off yet. and yarr, i admit i still miss the old us. spending much much time together. now im getting busy&busier. but still giving time to spend with him. well, i really hope he appreciates it.

how i wish they were not sensitivity in me.
too much emotional causes this to happens.
gawd.
idk.i thing i shall&i should stop being&getting so irritated&sensitive over such small matter.
if im able to control, i will. if i cant, im sorry. i'll burst.

basically that's it.

will be back to do another entry. goodbye.

with love,
izyan.<3

2007-07-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

im b0red.here i am blogging&updating.

YESTERDAY,
went out with my dearest family. okehh. we had a dinner. dad treats to the restaurant. okehh. the tomyum was great.& i ate fish steak. there was spaghetti. and the teriyaki chicken. yumyum. delicious laa. didnt meet him. and yeaa, we need to haf some time not meeting each other. let him haf he's own time with his friends& family. ((:
yess. i must be understanding. haha.

NOW,
i really really must start with revisions. well, i cant just say, and no actions taken wadd right??. im already following up with schedules&timetable. i MUST. well, ive divided time for dear also l0rr.&its a must. haha. lol. it must be balanced up wadd. hehes. teacher nagging: last minute preparation wont work,& i hafta agree.its true. a lil preparation makes a diff. and 16 weeks to olevels. how fast the time flies. how i wish im 5. haha. being pampered. (; its the best thing. and its sickening being in sch. gosh.

todays sch was alrightt... pretty good perhaps.i didnt expect myself to rch sch early. hafta board the early bus.new shoes brought to sch. people commenting it was AS PER NORMAL`.ehh lawa.` eeyeerr,tk kenek dgn baju sch uniform.` nice. `cheh, kasut baru.
yeaa. i had maths test today. and yeaa, it was kinda tricky. the transformation& cirlcles was easy. gahgahgah. went for art. and yea, still stuck with the flowers borders.
i still need to finish up my english homeworks. im done with history.

TOMORROW,
-we're gonna start on our night self-study. 6-8. fast huh? yesyes.

-we're going to republic poly for the early admission talk. it will be at 3-5pm. & im really keen into getting to republic poly. well, its near. and convenient. (;
but only if my o level grades are satisfying enough, for the poly to take me laa. gawd.

-MY AFFECTION.
4th july. yeay ! its already a month. WEEE~ *eternity loves.*
i love muhammad irfan. he's my man. he's my star.he brightens me up. ilh. sayang dia. he's effin adorable. i dont care what people gonna say about him. well, nobodies perfect. & he's mine. I SO LOVE HIM. & i enjoyed the blissful moments we had darl. ((:
izyan. just stop it. hah.

the sucky thang.

`Im getting so friggin irritated with those losers. i must say,they are so damn pathetic.

`i have eyebags &it suck. i need loreal (hydrafresh eye) *anti-dark circles* haha.

`my lips. swellin.just dont tegur.

`ohh my hair. its freaking me out. -_-

`im being so vain nowadays. complaining about unsatisfying stuffs tt totally irritates me.

`pathetic people can fuck off. they dont belong here.

`sarcasm. u cant try it on me.& u'll see the consequences. its either a slap u'll get, or just whatever bitch.

`nobodies perfect.&everyone makes mistake. and yeaa, dont hafta go around commenting&criticizing people. it wont do u any good. trust me. if ure perfect. means ure fortunate. thank god.

`losers tend to copy what winners does.& its so pitiful. get a life laa.

`humialiating others doesnt gif u any satisfaction unless ure just jealous. well, i do believe in karma. & i thing, u better do & learn from it.

people around me now are starting to talk about TRANSFORMERS. well, my first impression on it was ; okehh, its sucha crap.but aftr listening to people, some really find it intresting& wna watch it for the second time.mostly for boys laa.& im sure. it seems a nice movie to watch too. but im still not into it. haha. I WNA WATCH FANTASTIC4. haha. yesyes. its so 'children-like'.
i dont care. lol.

now i need new clothes. i knw. im schling. it seems like sch stuffs are more important. but i dont care. i wna get tt mango jacket. its so pretty. (; im saving. and dieting.
a honeydew&strawberry yogurt for recess. heatlhy kann? lol.
stop it laa ehh.

enough said.

goodnight.

loves,
izyan.

i hafta cover them off.
so it wudnt be obvious. haha.
`nina, u knw wadd im talkin abt.
only u. =D

replies:

`hidayu: thanks sweets. THANKS SO MUCH. ure loved too. btw i thought i saw u in the art room just now. gah. maybe ure off early. do tkecre. see u ard girl. =D

2007-07-02T12:16:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

happy youth day. gaga. and yea, i didnt expect things to be this hard. well, yesterday went to his mum house. it was fun. his family is so fun-loving. yesyes. his aunt says ive change. dah gemuk sikit. mcm baby turtle. haha.
okehh. baby turtle. (;
today i really haf no plans. but i wna watch fantastic4, and im sure its not shown in the movie anymore.

` nina, thanks for listening to my so called problems. gah. stressin. hhaha.

learn a lesson today, not to gossip abt ppl. if ure not right either. its bad.

nothing much to blog laa. just got no mood.tmr sch. and yeaa. it suck. hafta just bear with stuffs.

goodbye.
he bites.

l0ves,
izyan.<3

2007-07-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

hello.

okehh.here i am blogging. family out. & im at home alone.
i should have update yesterday but i didnt. was busy. so yeaa, yesterday was supposed to meet boyfriend. but i changed the whole plan. okayy, my fault. was supposed to go out with him & his family. gah. im shy. hees. so yea, i went out with my family instead. to get school shoes. we went vivo city. and yeaa, it was greatt ! dad first said his budget was 30? and i was lykee. HARH..
60 can?? hehes. he didnt react to it l0rr. so i walk ard. im a little choosy in getting stuffs. yesyes. firstly, i saw this asics green pumps.at the in fa and i was like SO IN LOVE WITH IT. its so pretty. and labelled $79.00. i showed dad. dad: hmm, lawa.
well, since we've just reached maybe we should walk ard first. then we went to the nike store. and yeaa, there was this purple pumps. its so damn cute. labelled $114. exceed dad's budget alrdy laa. and i myslef doesnt want expesive shoes. well, its alrdy like ending sch. few more months. but still i need sch shoes.
aftr that we head to the adidas shop, and yeaa. i cant stop finding tt adidas pumps. i still was unable to find one. haha. but its okehh. i saw this adidas wallet. for men. its so nice. (=
hah. okehh. head to TOPSHOP then, and yesyes. the shoe there really caught my eyes.
its $43. i was totally in dilemma. in either tt topshop white shoe, or tt asics green one. i made up my mind and decide on the green asics. dad didnt mind. so yeaa. (;
the salesgirl was gorgeous. haha. she serve me. (:

okehh, and the animal green bag was so NICE. i love it l0rr. i persuade mum to buy it. but she point at dad instead. i just smiled at dad. he smiled back. alarh. the smile shows a NONO. so its alrght. myb next time. i need a haircut. really. can someone just accompany me.

so today's plans: out. with dear at 4 plus. and yes. i finished up my history assignment yesterday. yay ! was so happy.
im left with maths. ((; i still haf tomorrow to finish them up. YOUTH DAY holiday. so; HAPPY YOUTH DAY. to the youths. haha.
mum gave me 50 bucks today. ((; yessa. THANKS MUM. ily. *kisses*
i really need to save up. i need to go shopping. and yes, girlfriends. next saturday. im patiently waiting. ((;

btw my blog is under construction for the moment. everitink is not alright. haha. i knw. just bear with it.
well, friends haf taken their class jersey. some was alright with it, some was pissed with it. ive
not taken mine. well, i really hope its not so bad. if not it'll be a waste of money.

replies;

`sya: wana full the board with u? ishh. hehe. ((; thanks for tagging.

`hidayu: yesyes. (=

`shid: im learning. and yes. it suck l0rr. everitink is terkeluar. heh.

enough said.
i need to get myself ready.
& im out.
tkecre.
loves,
izyan.<3

2007-06-29T15:51:00.000+08:00

hellohello.

well, today my school celebrated BE YOURSELF DAY. so we're allowed to wear anything we wna wear, except revealing clothes. its quite a good thing actually, but having to wear a shoe was crappy. i just wore my pumps instead. a few turn up wearing flipflops. & yarr, shud have just rebelled. some came with pretty outfits, some just wore uniform. & simple clothings. (; well, some even overly dressed up. haha. nina, thanks for the lift yeaa. it was great. (; i didnt hafta take the bus. and yeaa, my pumps was giving me hell. wala0.

so we didnt had much lessons. we had a show, about freedom.& yeaa, syairah performed. (; haha. cutee laa. we end earlier today.
then hidayu told me about the prank call she had too, well. okehh, they're so damn bad l0rr, to have maki herr. like wth/. she told me the whole story. & yeaa. irritatinglaa sehh.
i told mum abt the prank call made to hidayu&mardhia. mum: u haf nice friends, they're so concern abt u. and yess, im fortunate. THANKS girls. ((=
well well, didnt expect them to haf done tt l0rr. myb they're off limit alrdy.gah.
`hidayu,u tkecre. and thanks. much appreciated.

after everything we head to mcdonalds. had CHOCOLATE SUNDAE. weee~. and head back home. rchd home at 2 plus. & will be out later. to meet dear. yess, its been days since we even talked or had a good sms. yeaa. myb cause of the busy life we haf.

i wna CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN. so sick of it alrdy. gosh. hafta slowly search for a pretty one. (;
plans for weekends, i wna go get new shoes. sch shoes. and my hair.

enough said. will return to blog again aite.
byebye.

THANKS GIRLFRIENDS. ((;
loves,
izyan.<3

2007-06-28T18:12:00.000+08:00

hello.

well. suck. today just suck. my malay oral ? hate it. really laa. wala0. suck.suck.suck. i knw, i shouldnt have stress myself. i was so stressed up. gawd. im hell worried. i nearly cried when i reached home. i stayed kewl, in sch. i just tried to control. okehh, it suck. *pissed*
the passage was about library&stuffs. and the conversation was damn. it was about sopan santun. & yarr, it was supposed to be easy. if ur mind was flowin well enough laa, but mine arent. its not even thinking. and fuck. gawd. i really was dumb. the long pause suck more. im taking o level l0rr. *regrets*. but i hope the teachers are lenient. i REALLYREALLY HOPE.
well, things would have been more smoother if i was more calm. okehh,damn. whats done, cannot be undone. and yarr. okayy. stop talking bout this alrdy.

easy said. i didnt enjoy myself today. firstly, my uniform was dirty, due to my clumsiness.'the tomyam'. second, the wax that accidentally dropped on my skirts during art lesson. then there was the big spot. and it looked damn ugly l0rr. i was so damn pissed. thirdly, the essay. okehh, fuck. fourthly, the oral. fifthly, the teman that doesnt give moral support, instead gave pressure. hah.

now im rotting at home. though i was back home late. feeling so damn bored. i dunt feel like going sch tmr. well, we hafta wear SHOES.like wth? wear home clothers with shoes. think what, funny uhh?

since ive dropped poa, i had free period. so we went library.mardhia told me abt tt prank call thingy. and yarr, it was about me&irfan. ahaha. and it was so lame. heh. i mean yea, i was supposed to be a prank, im sure. but why me? haha. but im okehh with it. cause i knw who did it. since he's my oldfriend, im finee with it. gosh, they were so enthusiastic to haf acted crying&stuffs.so DRAMATIC. haha. lol. didnt expect them to do tt, and whatsmore in the morning. gah, well thanks mard for tt info. ((:

`tuning to pastikan by sitinurhaliza. (;

and guess what, ive got no more bigtummy. no more him calling me 'boncet'. yay ! lol.

replies:

`aika: atika kann? heh. me&irfan? (= thanks girl. ive improved? haha. in what? lol. btw thanks for tagging.

`... : whoever u are? i dunt get u? i mean what are you trying to say? haha. sorry. do leave ur name if possible okehh, (;

till here.
goodbye.
*pissed*
EVERYTHING SUCK TODAY. REALLY. NO MOOD.FUCKING PISSED.
-_-
all my plan ruined.was supposed to meet dear but i guess his friends matter more lorr,
im sure.
& thanks.
gah !

plain entry,i knw. nites.<3
i feel so down now. i should haf just went to syairah's hse.

2007-06-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

ohh hello.

im back home early today. there's no achievers.! weee~. we're off earlier than those having in the hall. hah. & the sexuality talk was fun. it wasnt really abt sex. it was more abt relationships, how do we overcome break ups?. tt lead to break down. and stuffs. its fun. & it was so open. well, there's only girls l0rr, so tts why. (; haha. ms rajesh was the one in charge taking our class. she even asked abt who's attached. it really shocked me. haha. yarr. (=

well, today ntg much. cos im gonna rot at home. & read malay,malay,and malay stuffs. IM HAVING ORAL TOMORROW. & fuck. im so damn gonna shiver. im scared. & hello, i do have problems talking. esp if the examiner haf tt bored look. ohh gawd. i hope i just wont go blank & stop.

had sleeps just now. now i feel much better, to do some talking on my own. haha. yeaa, practice for tomorrow. ((;
&yarr, this friday. my sch celebrating; be yourself day whereby students are allowed to wear whatever they wna wear. (; this gotta do with youth day. " hari belia". (=
yesyes. and i dont need to carry much books. yeay ! (; haha. im not sure what im gonna wear either. we'll just see.

enough said.
tkecre.
goodbye.
loves,
izyan.<3

2007-06-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

hello.

a quick one okeh, today was tired. & i was so damn sleepy. gah. talked on the phone with irfan till 2+ am. and yarr, morning alarms pissed me off. i need much more sleeps. everything in sch was alright. i guess. and now here i am. blogging. going to turn in real soon. SO SLEEPY OKEHH.
maths short test was kinda tricky. haha. and yarr, i hate graphs. i love transformation. wee~.
THURSDAY, MALAY ORAL, O LEVEL. wish me luck. and i need some tips people. hah. i can talk and chat non stop with people, but when it comes to oral. i will go all silence. haha. trust me. i cant talk much. and i hate it when i get stuck. it suck okayy, its like so dumb. hah. i hope everything will go on smoothly. (;

pass him tt wallet. (; and yarr, in every relationshps thre's ups & downs. still hafta face them.
so i hafta bear with them. ily still.

enough said.
goodnight.
l0ves,
izyan.<3

pretty girls make friends with pretty girls.
& they gets SO arrogant.
irritating. -_-
dont pretend. & what goes around, comes around okehh.
so goodbye dear readers.

2007-06-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

ohh hello.

im just so lazy to blog now.
haha.

so yeaa. sch today. was sucky i guess. i didnt wna go sch but it was the first day. so haf to. waking early in the morning making me go crazy. haisy0h. i just couldnt go to slp last night. & i slept at 1 plus instead. afta feeling so sleepy then. heh. IM SLEEPY NOW.

my weekends.
went off to malacca at friday night.& yarr. it was finee. hah. some problems happens, just dunt wna mention here. & i just shopped a few thiings tt i was intrested on. thre's not much things tt are attracting me. heh. bought this dress. (; and two roxy purse. ohh lala. tt anna sui wallet is so damn pretty l0rr. (; but it was imitation. heh. and tt mango&topshop dresses caught my eyes deeply. haha. really. they were having THE SALE. but it cost a few bucks still.
sch shoes, i was SUPPOSED to get a school shoe, but i didnt. haha. i think ive decided to get tt simple topshop pumps. (; i guess. we went kl also. i knw. thou its kinda rush. rch spore yesterday night. and yarr, it was kinda tiring. but it okehh. im gonna have a good rest later. (;
starbucks thre.
mum: wh0a, the coffee here is expensive ehh?
haha. yess mummy.

bought boyfriend, a quiksilver wallet.i really hope he likes it. (; or love it instead. heh.
the roxy shoulder bag is so pretty. nice laa. should have grabbed tt too laa. *regrets*

as for schools today, we still had achievers. but it ends at 3pm today. but starting from next week we gonna end schools at 4. *sigh* i hate it. but yarr, "you're taking O levels". tts what people around me gonna say. im sure. hah. im gonaa love FRIDAY. hah. we get to go back early. and thre's no achievers for me. (: YESSA!
common test gonna start next week. and hell, im not even ready l0rr. need to finish up the leftover holiday assignments. hah. LEFTOVER.?. *english&maths*. gagah.
malay oral (o levels) starts this thursday. & now i need to talk bahasa baku. haha.so i'll feel used to it. when it comes to the conversation part. cause honestly, my oral suck big time okeh. and yarr, i need to read buku melayu. ! haha.
im scared. what if my minds get blanked all of a sudden. ? arghh, i hope tt wont happen. wish me luck people.
recess today was -_-, had honeydew & strawberry yogurt. & SHE was the first thing i saw when syairah&i was heading towards the canteen. ohh. bitch.
oops sorry, if i was mean, but i cant hold it back anymore. her presence is making me go burst. myb due to much jealousy perhaps.
she&him is cute. but kinda haf tt wadever~ attitude towards them.
science achievers, didnt paid full attention. i was busy making my own experiments. haha.

my boyfie had a haircut. it's effing cute&adorable. gagagah. he looks like a small kid. & yarr, its real cutee. (; hees`.

hairchecks was fine & nail check. my nail was long. & ms khoo took my name down. didnt cared either. haha. who cares. but i will and hafta cut dem l0rr. );
i need to sacrificed my computers,my teevees.my enjoy-enjoy.my soccer. haha.
ohh yarr, im gonna have my nssl finals on the 8 july. do come and supprt. (;
haha. still im not sure if im possible to do THE SACRIFICING PART& THE PROMISED, we made to mr anith. haha. but i'll try my best. tuition tuition, still not start yet. hah.
& sya, dunt sad2. smile okehh, god loves her. (;
nina, thanks for tt souvenier u bought. its the thoughts tt matters. i appreciate it sweets. (;

enough said.

everytime i face a problem.
i look up to the world.
and ponder.
im not the only one facing all these.
it takes one person to ease the situation.
its all about forgiving.

i love love my hunniest irfan.
ilh.(; he's effin adorable.
weee~

byebye.

2007-06-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

hello.

ohh.yesyes. there's not much to update. haha.so yarr. yesterday,went to finish up my homewerks. at sya's house. and yea. bumped into mard's in the bus. (; she didnt realise i was in the bus. haha.
but it was alright. homework still not finish. and guess what? i learn somthing new. i know how to play poker card now. yea. haha. rchd home at 1 plus. waited for mum to get back home, i forget to bring my keys. and lucky dear accompanied me. (;
took taxi back home.(; midnight charges suck. today it was crappy. rotting at home. help mum do some cooking: ayam rendang,hotdogs,mushroom with oyster sauce. (; yumyum. okehh, i was supposed to be out now. off to pasir ris. but ive made up my mind to go tomorrow. THE PRIMARY SCH REUNION. heh.

well.3 days to schs. how fast the time flies. can i not return sch. wala0.
okehh.
mum told dad abt the expensive bag, haha. dad was surprised.
(;
tt spider freak me out l0rr. wala0.
today just suck. spending time at home.

im crapping readers. so enjoy.
haha.

i smile.
i laugh.
i love.
i walk.
i talk.
i call.
i jump.
i kick.
i hop.
i speak.
i stare.
i desire.
i dream.
i wink.
i crave.
i wear.
i dress.
i write.
i read.
i bleed.
i run.
i giggle.
i kiss.
i confess.
i hug.
i scream.
i bite.
i promise.
i wait.
i adore.
i see.
i wonder.
i sleep.
i eat.
i chew.
i disturb.
i irritate.
i hide.
i drink.
i study.
i care.
i miss.
i lie.
i feel.
i touch.
i stretch.
i cook.
i spend.
i shop.
i criticise.
i comment.
i praise.
i play.
i admire.
i hurt.
i smell.
i taste.
i grow.
i listen.
i hear.
i follow.
i choose.
i forgive.
i apologise.
i sing.
i pose.
i cheer.
i shout.
i cry.
i regret.
i mess.
i dance.
i move.
i decide.
i advice.
i ignore.
i complain.
i forget.
i guess.
i replace.
i fall.
i share.
i stand.
i accept.
i enjoy.
i pray.
i design.
i catch.
i draw.
i l0se.
i win.
i fly, okehh bedek.haha.
i know.
i crap.

replies:

`shid: i went with zad laa donga. hahhhahha. thot ure not intrestd in malay shows.heh.

`sya: yesyes. i knw how to POKER CARDS now. ! yessa. hehe.
the penipu's.

im bored.so so bored.
okehh goodbye.
i l0ve my dear.

and yarr, if i dunt update tmr, means im off. so do tkecre. (;
will update soon. <3
lots of love,
izyan.

2007-06-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

hello. just got back.
(=

lets start how my day was. woke up kinda early today. it was already 12 plus. followed mum,get our lunch.&home. bumped into khairul.haha. i was kinda shock. didnt expect to bumped to him l0rr. i was like,OMG. haha.
him: ehh.
me: ohh. ehh.*shocked*
me: hello. *waving*
him: *wave back*.
haha. yea.tt was it. reached home at about 2.then head to nina house. watch APM, and tt skipping thingy show.it was kewl. the hot chilli steppers. haha. and yarhh, the sleeq. shariff is so damn CUTE&ADORABLE laa sehh. ((; im melting. haha. well,left nina hse at abt 430pm. and head to meet DEAR. he bought me this adidas bag. its black&pink. okehh, THANKS SO MUCH.
i appreciate it l0ads. its so nice. i l0ve it. ((:

and yarhh, i was kinda pissed abt the girl he mentioned, izyanah or sumtink like tt laa. like wadever laa ehh~.

excuse me girl, u dunt hafta be so bitchy l0rr. and ur name? wala0 wehh. sibuk only.
well, girls do get jealous okayy. so yeaa.
head back home. had dinner. showed mum the bag.
mum: whoa. lawa ehh. pandai irfan pilihkan..
me: *giggles.*

i cant stop trying on tt bag. haha.
mum: sayang jugak dier pat nur ehh.
im like: mama, diam ehh. hehe.

secret; my family calls me 'nur'. yeaa. haha.

so thats about it for today, nothing much. i knw.
till here i guess.

wait.im hell-bored. lets do this, dear losers.

1.the phone rings.who do u want it to be?
him.

2.when shopping at grocery store,do u return your cart?
yes,i do okehh.

3.if u had to kiss the last person you kissed,would you?
for sure. (;

4.do you take compliments well?
not really.

5.do you play Sudoku?
no.

6.if abandoned alone in wilderness would u survive?
for a few days i guess.

7.what made you smile recently?
watching mum dancing.

8.what annoys you?
bitches.& pimples.

9.what do you want to be when you grow up?
fashion designer,beauty consultant ( consults in make-ups and stuffs)
or a fashion photographer. (;

10.what's your relationship status?
unsingle.

11.if reincarnation was real, what would you NOT want to live your next life?
----i dunt knw---

12.what was the last movie you watched?
jangan pandang belakang. pfft.

13.if you can commit one crime without getting caught by anyone what would it be?
rob the bank. ((; so im able to spend the money, & go shopping. hehe.

14.do you have any bad habits?
yes.

15. what last picture you took?
myself.?

16.say a random fact about yourself:
i can be nice.if u are.

17.who's your favourite superhero?
god.

18.if ur house was on fire,what would be the first thing you would do?
run. duh~.

19.who was the last person you shared beds with?
my bed? nobody. haha.

20.who do you text the most?
irfan.

21.favourite children's book.
hm. not sure.

22.what color are your eyes?
black.pure black.

23.how tall are you?
154

24.if you could do life over again,start from scratch, would you?
no.

25.do you have any secret admirers?
lol. -_-. wadd a question..

26.do you prefer sleep or eat?
both.

27.do you look like your mom or dad?
face,mum i guess. height,dad. haha.

28.do you thing you look good?
u decide.

29.can you do splits?
i wish i could, but i cant.

30.what movie do you want to see right now?
fantastic four.

31.do you think the grudge was crappy?
i have yet to watch to show, so i cant comment.

32.do you own a camera phone?
yes.

33.was your mom a cheerleader?
no. she's does make-up for womans.orlane.
when she was younger.

34.what's the last letter of your middle name?
n

35.how many hours of sleep do you get a night?
5-10? during holidays larhh.

36.do you like care bears?
hmm.okayy2 laa.

37.what do you buy at the movies?
depends.

38.do you knw how to play poker?
haha. no.

39.do you wear ur seatbelts?
no.

40.what do you wear to sleep?
pyjamas.

41.anything big ever happen in you town?
--

42.is your hair straigh or curly?
wavy.

43.is your tongue pierced?
no.

44.do you like funny or serious people better?
of course funny laa. to cheer me up. ((;

45.ever been to L.A.?
no.

46.who is one your mind right now?
irfan.

47.any plans for tonight.?
late sleeps. watch cd's.

48.what's your favourite song at the moment?
last night.

49.do you hate chocolate?
no. i love 'em okehh !

50.what do you and your parent fight about the most?
my attitude.my curfews.

51.do you need a boyfriend&girlfriends to be happy?
yes.cause they're my needs. and they cheer me up.

52.if you could have any job what would it be?
a salesperson, at the roxy store i guess. heh.

53.are you easy to get along with?
yesyes. (; if ure friendly. ((: then i'll be friendly too.

54.what is your favourite time of the day?
night.

55.are you a generally happy person?
yes. (;

56.name three things you did today.
eat.kisses.surf the net.

byebye.
i love mama.
we dance.we sing together.
haha.
loves,
izyan.<3

your heart belongs to me.

2007-06-18T19:27:00.000+08:00

hello.

im back.(;
okehh,its already one am in the m0rning and here i am blogging.heh. i watched this hindustan movie."mujhse dosti karoge". when dear msg me. okayy,HE'S BACK. i miss him like hell. and now he's back. yessa !
haha. that show was great. haha. hrithik roshan is so so hawt. and rani mukherjee is so so gorgeous. ((; yesyes. all about sacrificing.?

so i started my day.waking up at 8am.get things ready and off i go to the zoo. i knw, its early. ther's lesser ppl u see. & i didnt regret going either. it was sucha fun time. ((; well,thou it was kinda children place.but thre's so many things u cant be able to find outside. the nature. and the habitat there. so pretty insects& animals. yarr. there are some pictures. not all taken are shown.so yarr. (; i went with syairah,kak zana&kak nana. yea. (;

`the butterflies.the hippo.the seal.the birds.the giraffe.the ostrich.the white tiger.the elephants.the duck.the rabbits.the jaguar.the baboons.the big-nosed monkey.the seal. and otha animals not mention.haha. i cant possibly remember everitink. well, the playground reminds me of when i was younger, my childhood days. i ever took pictures there. and now its left with memories there. (;

SYAIRAH,IT WAS GREAT OKEHH. gagagah. tt video freaks us out.hahas.INFACT, WE'RE ENTHUSIASTIC. heh. ((;
and mynahs do go to the zoo's okayy. haha.

pictures.

the 4 girls.
gagagah. (:
crazieecraziee.

izyan&syairah.
i love her. <3>

sucha ancient place.

syairah&me.
the statue beside me was disgusting.
with the "nene" sticking out.
eeeeyyerrrr !

pretty birds.

they're for real okehh.
colourful butterfly.

camwhoring.

izyan&syairah.
enjoying the aircon.(;

and yarr. thats tt for the day at the zoo. reached home at 3 plus.
had my nap&lunch. ohh yar, the ben&jerry there are so freaking attracting.heh. pinkypinky. (;

well, enough said for now.
(;
and yarr, his coming back home is soo making me go crazy. haha.
my secret: jumping&hopping around when i'm happy&surprised for his return. haha. (((=

goodbye.
lots of loves,
izyan. <3

2007-06-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

hello.

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY. !

I LOVE YOU,papa. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAH. !

okayy,lets haff a quick updates for today.
well,nothing much happen.
except tt thre's gonna be much plans for me this week.
and my schedule are packed.! heh.

monday: going out with syairah. trip to the zoo. (;
(;

tuesday: im having my own plans.
finish up as much homeworks. gawd.

wednesday: project time. ):

thursday: the primary school reunion. ((: yeay.!
i think im going. i missmiss my primary schmates. its gonna be held at pasir ris,downtown.
its a chalet.3 days. we can also overnite. (; hmm. im not sure if im gonna overnite l0rr.
i'll decide later.

friday: im off. for vacation. i knw,its kinda late. well, it was parent's idea. so i just hafta follow l0rr. but it'll be kinda tiring for me. if i rch spore on sunday night. and hafta attend sch the next morning. wellwell.

today.
i was awake early. (; haha. yea. and had sliced fish soup for lunch.
ive been spending my time with the computer nowadays. just cant stop getting away from it.
its seducing me every now & then. gawd. my holiday assignment has been delay&delay&delay.
im just lazy. -_- how i wish i haf magic, so i am possible to finish my homeworks, using magic.heh.
okayy,crap. and i miss boyfriend. i have been reading thru his lastlast messages. and im like thinking what is he doing thre right now.? and yarr. sure having funn. (; enjoying his holidays.
okayy,im so damn hell bored at home. how i wish i could go out. well, i am tmr. (; yay !

replies;

`ziella: maybe we should plan another day so that ure able to follow.heh. WE SHOULD. ((;

goodbye.

2007-06-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

pictures.

me&birthday girl,MALAH.
i love her. (;

girls in the loo.

chilling.

senyum.

refleksi.

ohh sad us.

we're ecstatic.

unlabelled.

izyan.

zahidah.izyan.malah.nina.

us.

girlfriends.

perfectly together.

my new tee,i bought.(; labelled: dubble-bubble gum.

hello.

yesterday was a GIRL'S DAY OUT.& hell i had a great time l0rr. (;
we went town.and yeah ! it was totally a great time spend. with MY DEARESTDEAREST DARLINGS.*Girlfriends*. they make me go "gagagegegugu." met them later.cos went to meet irfan first.so sorry girls if i was late.heh. met them at fareast.(;
prettygirls. nina gorgeous.malah pretty.zaida cute.shida cute.
ohh. i bought this shirt,at hula&co. ohh.its so pretty. i was VERYVERY choosy l0rr. the tee written dubble-bubble gum.ohh.pretty.thanks girls for choosing&deciding them. ohh my. nina really shopped sia. & im jealous.heh.
she's just lucky. (; & she's very kind-hearted to have donate her money to the beggar.
afta walking around fareast.we had our lunch.and then walk around some more.
then we're off to city hall. first we head to penin. (; then to esplanade.
we sang BIRTHDAY SONG to MALAH&ZAHIDAH at the rooftop. and ther' was some background clapping frm sum otha people ard thre. well, thanks l0rr. we didnt expect them to clap& join in the fun. but thanks. (; heh.

we then went to marina square. had starbucks.(; chocolate frap. it was delicious.esp the chocolate cream. gawd.
we bumped into 'cappy rockstar'.heh. lucky jeyda. ((;
nina wanted to get tt puma tee,she's been eyeing.well,its pretty. and the changing room was pretty cool. it was like a library. kewlkewl.
i cant stop looking for tt adidas pumps, but i didnt seem to find one. but it was alright.
i really wna get a skinny jeans. ergh !
i reached homa at 11. (; i was early okayy. still could catch to watch 30 minutes of APM. siti was thre. ohh she's so damn hell gorgeous. (: fiza o was cute. heh.

on the phone with dear till 3.& he's off. okehh,tkecre h0rr. dont miss me.cause i'll miss u m0re.
(; i'll hafta spent my day without his presence till mon/tues. gawd.

today.will just hafta rot myself at home today. and hell. i need him,missing him alrdy lorr.
patience do pay off. so hafta just be patience for nw.

they plann to go watch NSSL tmr, faizal will be playing. it will be held at teckghee CC. im not sure if im going. cause its in the morning.& i do haf problems waking up. haha. i knw2.
i still hafta learn waking up early, cause schools gonna start soon. it will be lesser than a weeks time. & hell, ive touch my homeworks. no no. i dunt wana to start sch.im not ready. heh.

im so bored at home l0rr. help mum with cookings. (;

okayy,
updates on my:
MY WANT LIST

-i want those skinny jeans.
-i want tt dress. at hula&co.
-i want tt tee&a blouse at topshop.
-i want tt dress at topshop.
-i want tt polo tee at lacoste.
-i want tt faded skirt.
-i want tt pumps at topshop.
-i want tt blouse at adidas.
-i want tt puma bag.
-i want tt roxy wallet/purse.
-i want tt moneymoney.more money.
MY NEEDS LIST
-tt adidas shoe.
-a bag.
-a digicam.
-new hair in needs.

*more to update*
(in progress)

enough said.
till here.
byebye.

loves,
izyan. <3

2007-06-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

hello=hello.

okehh,
today had art class.
i was late.
it was suppose to be at 830,
but i turn up at 9++.
i just cant get up from my bed.
i was damn sleepy l0rr.

my batik,
finish half of the borders.
HALF.
shud have taken the piqs,
but i just f0rg0t.

i still haf MORE&MORE to go.
& we hafta finish up our preparat0ry work bef0re we are able to finsh up our batik.
&hell,ive n0t even touch a single thing on my prep work.and its not even SOLID.
my homeworks.its not finish up yet.
wala0.

its making me worry sometimes. well,i always wanted to start revisions & all.
but there's always something, holding me back.
eg, the feel of laziness. computer seducing me. parents asking me out.
meeting boyfriend. hanging out with girlfriends.
and i just CANT HAVE THE MOOD of revisions. im so lazy l0rr.
but then, later i will start thinking about preparation f0r O levels. and h0w stressing it will get esp during prelims. and the last minute revisions i'll always do.well, LAST MINUTE does not really work okayy. but its just habits. FOR ME. having to revise at the last minute.
ohh gawd.
what am i up to? hello, im taking my o's. and im slacking like hell. when this year is the MOST IMPORTANT year,for goodness sake.

maybe i SHOULD START having a TIMETABLE.? so i am ABLE to manage my time.
my schwork+revisions. schwork is SCHOOLWORK. revisions is REVISIONS.
they are different thing okayy izyan.
i really need to start my tuition soon. i cant probably just delay them. i need excessive care especially on my ENGLISH. how i wish i could be able to drop my science.? sci suck big time l0rr.wala0.
`shid,i want to be like hongjun !
wishlist.
`i wish i was smart. i wish im not taking o this year. i wish im done with preparations&revisions for o.if im taking it nw. i wish, i wish.
i wish i was pretty&adorable.i wish i was like jessica alba.heh. i wish i had much money.millions&millions.i wish life was easier. i wish im tanned. i wish i was as humble as siti nurhaliza.i wish my english was perfect as like those news broadcast in the BBC. i wish my boyfriend was my husband.i wish my girlfriends was my sisters.i wish i could spent my whole time in bed. i wish i could meet kaka. (; i wish i dont hafta go thru my face with pimples. i wish thre's no science.i wish i could touch the stars.
ohh.i haf many wishes. well, im still glad&thankful for who i am n0w. so thanks mum&dad.

i was supposed to meet my deardear.but he's in the rush to renew his passport.so i was like alright,okayyy.in fact i was kinda pissed. well, good girlfriends should understand boyfriend difficulties.so as for this situation,i just hafta smile.((;
chilled with girlfriends.adorable kids at the playgrounds; daniel.he's just so cute. ((:
he's so chubby. reached home early. (; mum didnt expect me to turn home early.
she've cooked my favourite dish, tomyum. its so delicious. yumyum. & sweetandsour fish.

tomorrow plans:
day out with girlfriends.wee~ i cant wait to take pictures & upload them here. im sure thre's going to be lots of them. but. i feel bad. i want to celebrate birthday with dearest malah. and my dearest irfan is going away tomorrow too. f0r his holidays. so im in a KIND OF a dilemma situation.
ohh help me,someone. maybe i'll meet him.then go out. or vice versa.
either way. so it'll be balance. yea !.
(;

watched datuk siti nurhaliza,at bicara on suria. ohh, she's so pretty+gorgeous. how i wish i had her perfect skin. its so flawless l0rr. (;
im craving for hershey's&strawberries now. and yeay !. dad bought them for me. thanks dad.(;
hershey's (special dark).but no strawberries. and i want starbucks. not COFFEE okehh. but the chocolate frappucino.
its so damn delicious l0rr. i need lotsa money. i wish i could go shopping. gawd.

now, i just cant wait for my holidays.thou parents will be delaying them due to some reasons.; cause i reallyreally need new shoes. i really eyeing on tt adidas pumps. and tt adidas bag. its hotpink. the color just caught my eyes l0rr. hawt-hawt-heat. i want neww blouse&tshirts.im sick&tired of my clothes in the cupboard.and wearing them over&over again. i want neww hairr ! lets go straightening. it'll be awesome ! no more curly-wurly. it makes my hair spoil.hees. i want tt skinny black pants. i want tt pretty tees with the "little miss naughty" on it. or "little miss shy". will update more of my: my wants,my needs,& my wishlists.

enough said.
goodbye readers.

2007-06-13T18:56:00.000+08:00

ohh wells.

today was b0red.
very b0red.
-.-

i need TO GO OUT !.
can SOMEONE JUST ASK ME OUT?
ANYONE?

wala0.
tomorrow,
there's art.
need to finish up batik&
thre's m0re to g0 l0rr.
-_-

its g0nna start at 8:30 in the m0rning !
haisy0h.
&im so feeling lazy.
gawd.
why must it be in the m0rning.
&we hafta be in sch u/
no jeans.&no slippers.
wth?!

okeh,
slept late last night.
due to some reasons.(;

`nina: u dunt hafta worry much.
he l0ves u sweets.
((;
BIG GIRLS DONT CRY k.
hehes.

im always here to lend the ears.
(;
nina&sya.
whats friends f0r rite?
yea. ((;

chatted with fatin,
okehh,
she's sucha sweet girl.
(; & very straight f0rward.
heh.

i need u n0w.b0yfriend.
IM SO OVER U.

today just suck.
okayy,bye.
tkecre readers.

2007-06-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

hello.

just gt back.
well im early.
need to rch curfews laa.
heh.

well,
today went to the polyclinic.
to get MEDICINES,
f0r my thr0at.& im having a slight fever.
gawd.

warned fr0m the d0ct0r: "ure having a VERY BAD SORE THROAT.
so u better n0t eat spicyf00d,ch0colates,candies.
and n0 cold drinks okay.
plenty of plain water would be good for u."

wala0.
okehh,
wadever.

mum: "u better heed the doct0rs advise."

okehh,wh0 cares.

well,after tt head back h0me.
had medicines.
and went out.

as plan,
wantd to meet SYAIRAH,
but SOMEONE was late.
hehes.

so cancel plan to g0 wdlnd laa.
had n0 voice.
he cant stop disturbing me l0rr.
we did went to wdlnd,
as he wantd t0 g0 to his mum hse.
i f0llowed.
but when rchd,
haha.
okehh,nvrm.

went back taking taxi.
(;
okehh,

kisses.

`BAD NEWS.

sya,i didnt expect tt news to come t0 me like tt !
its s0 damn fuckng shock me l0rr.
he made a mistake laa.
but sya,cheer up okehh.
((;
i knw,its hard to accept.
but u'll hafta face it thou.

replies;
`shid,thanks ehh.

`sya,yea.we won afterall.ehehs. ((;

hmm.
gawd,
he's gona leave me f0r like 3-5 days.
wala0.
he's going f0r his h0lidays;to pahang&perak.
he'll be leaving on friday?
& i will miss him badly AGAIN.

tmr?
no plans.
well,
holidays advantages:
-able to wake up as late as u wish. i l0ve sleeps. ((=
-gets plenty of rest.
-gets to g0 on a vacation. (;
yessa.

holidays disadvantages:
-miss girlfriends badly.
-MILLIONS of HOMEWORKS given.
-need to d0 housework.
-so much of controlling. -_-

okehh,till here.
will update soon.

keep holding me,kissing me,&loving me.

byebye.
l0ves,
izyann.(;

ps: there is only one happiness in life,
to l0ve & to be l0ved. ((;

2007-06-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

ohh hello.

yesterday.
10 june 07

NSSL;
estrella was my team name.
in another meaning is : star.
& we qualify to the finals okehh.
yessa!
hehes.
didnt ecpect out team qualify laa.
wala0.
i really t0t tt we w0uld be out of it in just a few games.
ahahs.
well,
as f0r malah's team.
dey didnt qualify.
hmm.
i really thought they c0uld g0 into the finals.
they seems t0 have str0nger players than us.

but its alright.
let byg0nes be byg0nes.
& ther's sumtink every each tt has happened.
during the wh0le thing,
there were sum pr0blems t00 laa.
atyra heard s0me conversation saying:
harapkan keeper jekk lawa,
confirm team tk bg0s.

wala0.like wtf?
ehh hello,
okeh.
if ure g00d enuff then its alright.
well,
wh0 fucking cares abt wadd dey wna say.
hell with u ppl.

hm,
then afta everitink we had our cleaning ourself up,
at the nearby swimming c0mplex.
okeh,
freshen up. (;
heh.

then,
head t0 amk hub.
had our breakfast+lunch.
hah.
we didnt have our breakfast in the m0rning.
& it was alrdy 4 or 5.
gawd, im alrdy starving.
we then ate at banquet. (;

i l0ve my girls.
malah,tyra,jeyda,mard,nana,mard,&nic0le.
they are s0 rawking my s0cks.
esp; malah & atyra.
hahas.
theyre s0 damn farnie.

i left girls and went off t0 yishun
to meet up with dear irfan.
at yishun mrt.

okehh,
his team didnt qualify.
but its alright.

(;
cheer up hunney.

well,
n0w i g0t n0 v0ice.
my throat is giving me hell.
suffering fr0m s0re throat right n0w.

i dunt knw why laa,
yesterday i didnt shout much either.
weird.weird.
rch h0me at 12 yestrdy.
gawd.
im over my curfews.

today.
11 june 07

stuck at h0me.
okehh,
nevermind.
i need freedom.& ther's unfairness.
at h0me nw.
i hate it.
things aren't g0ing s0 well at h0me nw.
ppl are having their mood-swings.
& look who hafta suffer?
well well.
its alright.
its just gona be f0r a moment or s0,
things will get alright.
i just h0pe so laa.

sagittaurius horosc0pe.

breaking up is hard t0 do,
but sumtymes making up can be even harder.
you & someone imp0rtant are on ur way to repairing
your relationship,
but it is still g0ing to take some l0ng heart-to-hearts
to get things to a healthy place.
good communication requires TRUST & HONESTY--
which happen to be tw0 of ur specialties.
you two will end up stronger than u ever were bef0re.

`a little jealousy in a relationship its healthy.
its like filled with sugar& with spice.
heh.
its always nice t0 knw whens someone's afraid t0 l0se u.
hah. ((;

till here.
goodbye.
hugs&kisses.
schools&loves.
family&friends.
girlfriends&boyfriends.
mum&dad.

2007-06-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

ohh hello,
im b0red.
so here i am bl0gging.

well,
i was up late t0day.
had late-nite calls ytrdy night.
till 6 in the m0rning
with my dearest b0yfriend.
gawd,
it was funn.

he made me laugh&&laugh.
okeh,
i just s0 l0ving him s0 much.

i aint pretty,
i knw.
unlike jessica alba.
heh.

(;
myb i can imagine being
izyan alba sumtimes?
perhaps.

having him, leaving me during olevels peri0d
w0uld be sucha disaster.
gawd.
im w0rried sumtymes.

i l0ve my sweetheart.

okeh,
i just dunt knw wht else t0 update.

just s0 b0red laa.

`i miss u when something good happens,
bc0s ure the one i wna share with.
i miss u when sumtink is troubling me,
bc0s ure the one wh0 understands me s0 well.
i miss u when i laugh & cry,
bc0s i knw tt ure the 0ne tt makes my laughter gr0ws,
and my tears disappear.
i miss u all the time,
but i miss u m0st when i tink of all the w0nderful
times we spent,
f0r th0se were the best & m0st mem0rable moments of my life.
i miss him n0w.
&
i miss syairah!
gawd.

till here,
to0dles.
l0ves,
izyan.
<3

2007-06-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

ziella.sulaiha.jeyda.malah.tyra.izyan(me)

me.ziella.jiayi.tyra.malah.

hello.

its been quite awhile since i last updated.
have been busy.
&my computer wasn0t w0rking.

okehh.
il0ve life n0w.

i accepted it.
040607
he's mine.
okehh, he's my brightest star.
i depend on him s0 much nw. (;

well, mum has been nagging quite al0t nwadays.
hm, i guess its to make me realise abt things nw.
i cant p0ssibly slack much l0rr.
hmph.

had classes every m0rning this week.
nw its tyme t0 rest.
had d0ne s0me h0mewerks.
maths.halfdone
english.n0t started
science.hell with it

art camp was okayyy....
n0t s0 gerek laa.
it was a 3day2night camp.
and my beg was like s0 damn big.
lucky ther's my her0,
hehes.
he fetch me up frm h0me.
isnt he s0 sweet?
hehe.

okehh,
this sunday.
NSSL.
national streets0ccer league,
for girls.
its g0na be held at kolam ayer.
ohh gawd,
im so hell w0rried.
c0s im g0nna be the girlkeeper,
like man,
wht if sumone's just hit it off on my head.
ohh tt's my BIGGEST WORRY.!
);
scared laa sehh.

replies:

`nurul,i will link u up sweets.

`sha,i will kirem slm pat irf. (;

`sya,i miss u t00.
yeap.i will link u and ur dada bl0ggy aite. ((;

`ija, i DO have eyebags. and it suck big time.
ergh. (;
well,thanks f0r tagging sweets.

yeapyeap,
till here.

i l0ve you,irfan. my dearest sweetheart.<3

l0ves.
izyan.

2007-05-24T20:41:00.000+08:00

hello.

ohh guh-reat.
MEET THE PARENTS.
blueks.

yesterday was sucha great time.
sya.sha.irf.&me.
i l0ve it.
thou he was kinda b0red.
but they started to clique afta sumtime.
((;
yeay.
funny laa.

~i cherish every hug. (;

ac milan vs liverpool.
2-1.
hehes.
((=

starting to read this malay novel:
aku tanpa cintamu.
and written:
kita memang telah
ditakdirkan untuk
bersama...

homeworks coming my way.
&art camp is cut d0wn to three days.
so yea.
(;
good.

okehh till here.
my entries getting b0red.
i knw.
okay,bye.

l0ves.l0ves.

ure my only one,hunney.

2007-05-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

izyan(eyebags),mard(hmphf),sya(smiley)
schoolgirls.

hello.

today was sucha flow.
everitink went smoothly.

n0thing much.
except,
we chat deeply.
heh.

the thing was cancel.
well well.
hehes.

tmr it was supposed to be mass run or sumtink.
but as f0r the 4E/5N,
we hafta attend sch.
revisions f0r o levels.
malay o levels: this monday.
gawd.
im kinda worried l0rr.
i h0pe i can clear them off.
so there'll be one subject d0wn f0r o levels.
*pray hard.

going library tmr.
(;
wit sya,sha, and irfan.
hees.

NE in action.
nina's team rawks.
they are so damn cute.
but they didnt won the first placing.
but it was alright.
they've done great in fact.
(;
congrats,girlfriend.

till here.
goodbye.
i <3>
only you okehh.
dunt worry hunney.
(;
hugs&kisses.

2007-05-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

ohh hello.

okehh.
well.
i need new sh0es nw.
mine's is in the hancur state.
im craving f0r tt adidas pumps.
its really nice.
or mybe the pink asic pumps.
gawd.
its really2 nice.

my midyr results:
i failed 2 subjects.
and i passed 4 subjects.
well.
i wasnt satisfy with my marks either.
it wasnt satisfying !
*doesnt mean i pass,
i would be able to make it l0rr.
well.
i really need l0tsa revisions.better n0t slack alrdy.

my h0lidays are packed.
with classes,lessons,
camps.
cant i have a little bit of rest?
gawd.
hate it laa.

okehh laa till here.
i wna watch *qabil khushry,qabil igam.

*there's always tht one person,
that will always have ur heart.

byebye.
l0ves,
izyan.

hugs&kisses.<3

my entries are getting b0red.
i knw.

i miss u,hunney.

2007-05-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

hello.
okayy.

ntg much too mention.
things have been alright.
ate kfc,
chickens.
i <3>
they really made me laugh till my cheeks hurt.
(=
they rawks.
nina,malah,atyra.jeyda.
il0vedem !
heh.
art was alright.
sarcasm was hell.

went f0r art,on time.punctual okehh !
(=

replies:
hidayu- sombong? sorry.
hehes.i didnt realise tt.
i tot u were the one sombong sehh.
hahas.
okehh2,next tyme must tegur each otha. ((=

ija-hello !! ((;
thanks fer tagging.
loves.

well, mum advices.
((=
thanks MUM.
u understand me so much.
yesyes.
he's manis.

hehes.

yesterday,
watch HOMEUNITED VS SAF FC.
2-0.
okehh. ((=
cheerleaders.
*no comments*
let it be laa.
hmmph.
there was faizal,hasyrul,peo,arif,helmie,zul&one otha friend.

me&him <3
went eat afta tt.
okehh.
i was kinda shy.
hehes.

till here then.

`i should stop the feeling of hatred towards anyone nw.
&i mean it.

im trying to control them l0rr.

(;
yeapyeap.
mum's advice.

goodbye.
kisses.

2007-05-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

zulaiha.ziella.malah.shid.jeyda.nina.atyra.izyan.

hello.

ohh well.
back h0me early today.

`it rained heavily early in the m0rning.
it makes me feel SO LAZY to go to sch.
hell.

&ive gotten back my results.
i suck.
its n0t satisfying.
and its VERY BAD, i must say.
maybe i slacked too much.
or perhaps..
hmm.
nevermind.
dunt wana talk abt it.
*regrets*

hmm.
`aftr sch was sucha crap.
i hate disrespect ppl.
gawd.
pissed me off.

but nevermind.

okayy.
im damn b0red nw.
suck.

`bumped into faizal in the bus just nw.
okehh,
he seems to be m0re matured. (:
he smiled.

`mum said she wud support me wadever happens.
okehh.
thanks mum.
ily so much !
so i dunt have to worry much.
but still. needs to study hard.
haisy0h!.

well,
yesterday had funn.
14may2007.
enj0y myself the wh0le day sehh !
firstly, i went swimming with dearest girlfriends.
they rawks.
i did enj0yed myself.
thou i was VERY late.
hahas.
((=
thanks girls.

and then,
went back h0me.
and met him.
afta 2 days nt mitting.

we watched JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG.
okehh.
it was VERY SCARY.
hahas.
& his watch was irritating.
silent it laa dear.
hehes.
(;
thanks hunney.

funnfunn. (:

till here then.
tkecre.
l0ves,
izyan.

*i am so glad i found you. (:

2007-05-13T13:09:00.000+08:00

hello.

okehh.
make a fast entry k.
didnt expect things to turn out so well.
((;
thanks mum&dad.
ily b0ff.
the meeting went finee.
yay.

well,
happy mother's day.
to all mums.
*tuning to kasih ibu-siti nurhaliza

didnt meet him f0r two days.
and hell.
we're missing each otha like crazy.
hhahas.
even mums asking why 'abg' nvr call.
hahas.
yea yea.
watever mum.
`bought mum an outfit. *yesterday*
at blaus shop.
its really nice.
tt cost 55bucks.
well mum,
h0pe u LOVE it k.
<3

he was very very shy.
but ((;
hahas.
okayy.
mum&dad have seen him.

okehh daa.
hmm.
no sch tmr.
yeay !
(;

till here then.
goodbye.
l0ves,
izyan.
<3

^ZIELLA: i link u already k. ((;

2007-05-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

hello.

well its really been a l0ng tyme since i last updated.

have been so busy with life.
&midyr.
i dont tink i wud be updating them f0r quite awhile.

but n0t planning to cl0se it dwn laa.
maybee it will be only f0r the meantime.
((=
FINISHED WITH EXAMS !
yay !

s0 relieved.
BUT dont wana get bck my results.
cause i did midyr BADLY !
okehh,i knw.
i suck.
ergh !
sucha disapp0intment sehh.

f0rget it..
whats done, cann0t be undone.
just leave it to fate.

today.
had the last paper.
science.
MCQ.
wala0.

hmm.
irfan's cuming.
to meet mum.
(=
heh.
its the ferst time l0rr.
hahas,
h0pe everittink turns out alrite.

MOTHER'S DAY IS AROUND THE CORNER.

well.
ppl have been looking at me strangely.
its just so weird sumtimes.
heh?
wth.
but wh0 cares.
say what u wana say.
i dont care.

okehh.
till here.
nid to get ready laa.
tkecre.
byebye.
l0ves,
izyan.

and to me it sounded like you meant forever,ever.
leaving was n0t and option, baby. never,never.
n0w don't you believe in l0ve that's worth a fight.
ilhim.

i miss my DEAREST GIRLFRIENDS LAA !

<3
l0vesl0ves.
kisseskisses.
tomat0?
hahas.

2007-04-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello.

well.
today,
i rch sch early.
dad send me.

then had my english paper 1&2.
okeh laa.
the compo was kinda alrite.
BUT the compre was so confusing l0rr.
wala0 !
but i h0pe i can at least just pass them laa.

goodnews.
ive gotten a new hp.
okayy best.
il0vemum&dad.

`difficulties paying up o lvl fees.

aftr sch finishd up project&
chilled wit him.
(;

cold&hungry.
heh.

rch h0me early today.
art was cancel.
f0r today,tmr & monday.
when i can make it,cher cant.
but nvrm laa.
((;

tmr gonna have tt damn c.i.p.
wala0.
ergh.

like stupid sia,
donations.wth/

hm.
wellwell.
im craving&saving to get tt adidas beg.
gawd.
its so damn nice l0rr.
im in l0ve with it.
really.

replies:

sya: yarr.i miss danial&liyana.
i need m0re of their pictures. (;
tkecre girlfriend.

irfan: ure n0t IRFAN.
stop pretending to be irfan. hmmph !

shid:watever laa yerr.

okayy laa.
till here.
goodbye.
l0ves,
izyan. <3

he's my everything.

2007-04-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

oh hello.
okehh.
been busy.

exams just nw.
well.
im sick.
and i did them.
);

i feel so weak l0rr.
but have t0 laa.

malay paper 1 was alright.
karangan dial0g,
and karangan mengenai tekanan.`

&tmr?
english paper 1 & 2.
gawd.
lucky nw im feeling better.
thou yesterday i was sneezing non-stop.
it was irritating l0rr.
wala0 !
he was also having flu yesterday.
sucha coincidence.

-the cdl project still undone.
-need to stayback f0r art.
haish.
getting lazy laa.
-books to be brought back h0me.
-i need a new sch sh0e.
-getting new hp?
hahas.
yay!

il0vemum.
i depend on her s0 much.
i must admit.
(;

nobody can stop us frm lurving each otha. -him.
goodbye.
l0ves.

2007-04-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

oh hello.

its been days since i last update.
well have been busy lately.
real busy.

so lets start talking bout wadd happen.
this week.

m0nday.

went sya hse,
to study.
(;

tuesday.

had match with siglap.
at jlnbesar.
l0st 4-0.
well.its alright.
yishun did their best !.

wednesday.
suck !.
im n0t using my hp at the m0ment.
ergh.

supp0sed to meet him.
but he was late.
waited f0r an hr.
but it was alright.
(;

thursday.

went sya hse.
to had the last lo0k on liyana&daniel.
had the last hug with liyana.
she was s0 cute+pretty.
i l0ve dem b0f,daniel&amp;liyana.
cutelaa.
they leave alread.
(;tkecre.

friday.

had match against b0wen.
FINALS.
we w0n 2-0.
> into the third place.
well d0ne girls.
(;
uve d0ne yishun pr0ud.
heh.
yarryarr.
but it was AWESOME.

hmm.met him afta tt.
he was frm his mum place.
(;

watching the stars was fun,dear.
hehes.
(;

2007-04-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

ohh hell0.
its been days since i last updated.

tuesday.

had self-training.
it was raining.
wellwell.
s0 just played basketball instead.
heh.
and guess wadd,
i fell on my butt.
it was s0 slippery l0rr.
it hurt l0addss.
gawd..

wednesday.

hmm.
went h0me early.
then went out back t0 study.
heh.
cant stay at h0me.
finished up hw.
and helped him with his art, batik.

thursday.

went t0 watch the s0ccer game at tanglin.
saw erykah.
she's cute l0rr.
netball training.

hmm.
and then.
in the bus.
imagine u&me.
him.
hugs.**
okehh daaa.
hahas.
had zinger. ((=
yumyums.

friday.

had hist0ry test.
okehh.it was bad.
);
its on russia.
man..
i did it with enthusiasm l0rr.
"smangat"
hhahahs.

then afta sch,'
girlfriends was inv0lve in the speech day thingy,
and the malay thingy.
except f0r me.
s0 then met him and head back h0me.
THEN..
he asked me al0ng t0 meet his mum at w00dland.
i was like okayy..
went back h0me.and meet him back.
his mum was alright.
and his otha aunts..
(;

then they made the 'h0w many children we gonna have when we gr0w up test'.
it was kinda cool.
his aunt used this ring and thread.
his and mine was the same l0rr.
hahas.
(=

wellwell.
his family was funn.
nicee pe0ple.

had fish'0le.

saturday.

went out again.
went his mum hse again just n0w.
(=
aiman cute laa.
he cant st0p singing laa.
hahas.
it made me laugh.
mum knew abt it.
okayy.

replies:

shafudin,yes i kn0w u. ((;

shid,wat sabun u talking? heh.

hidayu,i will relink u k.

irfan, is tt really u?
hahas.
i oive u.
yesyes,'
ioiveyou.
hahas.
*l0ves.

okayy.im still n0t asleep yet.
it alreadyone in the m0rning.
gawd,
i've been spending m0st of my time with him'

and n0w,
im kinda w0rried.
my O levels?
my midyear?
there's s0 many things man.
arghh !

wadd if i cant make it?
gawd.
its killing me.
);

okehh la.
till here.
nites.

il0vehim.
& il0vemum.
she understands me.
(;

byebye.
l0ves.

2007-04-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

hell0.
will make this a quick simple one.

summary of the day.

heh.

-drop out of poa.
yessar ! at last..
afta m0nths of suffering.
hhahas.

-friendscriticism.?it suck sumtymes.
just have to bear with it.(;smile whenever u can.heh.

-someone special gave me this ESCADA perfume.
he's just so sweet.
ilh. (:

(mum knws he gave me tt,
she just smiled in return.heh.)

-we quarrelled. ):
but n0w we're alright.
okehh.my fault.i knw.
im sorry dear.

-my hair?
i cut. yess. i did.
questionsquestions.?
hmmpf.

-gonna start with tuition soon.
h0pe this will really help on my o levels.

quite worried laa.
i dont wana come back sch.
its g0naa be s0 embarassing.
man.

h0pe everythings going to be alright.
(;

-he waited f0r me.(;
im s0 s0 s0 in l0ve with him.
n0 matter what.
really. <3
l0ves.

-thre's training tmr.
gawd.
im lazy.

see h0w it g0es tmr.
(;

okehh.
till here i guess.
goodbye.
eg0 contr0ls me.
fuck.
im s0rry.
didnt mean to *.
just nw.

he'll always be my hunniest sweetc0c0a,
(:
cherish him.

l0ves.
izyan/

2007-04-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

hello.
stuck at h0me again.

did ntg.
except tt im eating al0t.
heh.

nasi ayam penyek
& mee rebus -mum made it.
(=
its awes0me.

its really b0red.
n0thing to d0 at h0me.

other than going online.?
man.

AND AND
i miss him badly.
i just cant wait f0r his returning back.
&ill have to wait till m0nday.
its l0ng l0rr.
wala0.

tmr going sya's hse,
to finish up hws.
really h0pe i cud finish them all laa.
by TMR?

grr.
okehh la.
i gtg.
byebye.
l0ves.
<3
i l0ve him,my sweetc0coa.
hotdogs.
heh.
((=
he n0es.
(:

2007-04-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

hello.
its been days since i last update.

theres so many things tt happen.
AND i have been rching home late n0wadays.
spending time with him this wk.
heh.
il0veit.

held hands tight. (:
lepak till 10 plus with him yesterdaynite.
hahas.

n0w he's away for 3 days.
he's going for holidays.
im gonna really2 miss him sia.
wala0.
im stuck here, alone.
boohoo.
but its alright.
(=
hope he enjoy himself thre.

its really hard sehh
wen i wanted to leave him yesterday night.
but we did had our last night call,
till 2.
there's so many things we talked abt actually.

miss him sehh now.
*dont matter.*

oh yes we going to fight.
fight for our right to l0ve.
nobody wana see us together.
but it dont matter, no.
cos i got u. (=

there's lotsa hws sehh.
haish.

wellwell.

hmm.
had streetsoccer trg yesterday.
it was tiring thou.

today im gonna stay at home.
finishing up my hws.
if p0ssible.
heh.
kinda lazy acelik.

`gonna have my hair trim soon.
its getting thicker l0rr.

ohh yar,'
had our match,
yishun vs queensway.
we l0st to them,
2-1
but we still got into finals.
someh0w,
we gonna have match wit siglap,
in two weeks time.
okehh.
i suck tt tyme.
well i didnt play well l0rr.
ergh.
he saw.

had napha test.
my standing broad jump suck:162.
my sitandreach:48
my shuttlerun:11.5
my 2.4:15.5mins.
my situps:30
my pullups:14 or 16 uhh.

then he waited for me.hees.
he so sweet laa.

imagine u and me.
im missing you,darls.
l0veut0o. (;
3days is l0ng l0rr.
byebye.
takecare.

2007-03-31T17:31:00.000+08:00

hello.
just woke up.

went to watch the man u league thingy laa.
he was thre to0.
(=

yishun gt in !
(;
yay.

i woke up early in the m0rning l0rr.
tired sehh.
(;

`he rest his head on my shoulder.
hah.
`cant mention much laa.
`we lepak again together.
heh.
`then walk ard np.
`dye hair,green.
hees.

well many saw us,
our schmates.my classmates.
heh.
but nvm.

miss him laa.
wala0.

tmr going to syairah's hse.
wit other girlfriends.
((=
and then meeting him.
(;

okehh till here.

okeh,
byebye.
i l0ve sweetcoc0a.
<3>

stare at lips and eyes?
hees.

*tuning to the sweet escape- gwen stefani
(:

2007-03-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

lollipops.
he n0e laa. hehes.

hello.

okehh.
just gt back h0me.
well i went study at syairah's hse just nw.
okeh i did finish up all my h0mewerks !
((=

yay,
im d0ne with schworks.

then left her h0use at abt 9.
then went to meet him.
i miss him l0rr.
helmi and arif was thre t00.
(;

rch h0me at eleven plus.
n0w im tired.
but i gt a day t0 rest tmr.
if im nt going out laa.
maybe im going to watch his game tmr.
i want to.
but its in the m0rning sehh.
wala0.
see if can wake up early tmr.
(;

-_-
sleepy sia.heh. ((;

hmm.
he cant stop biting his fingernail.
which looks like a hotd0g.
cute laa.
(;

really.he so cute.
(;

okayy dah.
till here.
heh.
better n0t mention m0re.
nnti ader jekk yg bacer,
and sampaikan.'
hahas.

goodnite.

adore him.
my sweetcoc0a.
lol.
byebye.

misses&l0ves.
<3>

2007-03-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

hello.

make this a quick one k.

-sch was finee.
-saw him during pe lesson.cute laa.

-had training at yjc.
-the b0ys was there t00.
he came l0rr.

and we lepak afta tt together.
just the b0f of us.
hahas.
i couldnt stop luffing laa.
he's making me laugh.

okehh.
he n0e i write abt him
in here.
well.kinda shy if he really read it.

popcorn+sweet cocoa.?
cute laa.
okehh im b0red.
just rch h0me.
tired now.
`he n0tice my hair,
and my face.
(:

i need new facial cleanser.
heh.

till here.
im in l0ve laa.
heh.

girlfriends kn0w i guess.
byebye.
i miss him already.
see laa?
-toodles.!
its all about him. <3
lovee my sweetcocoa.

2007-03-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

she's a great friend.; fAzIellA. <3

nadia.ziella.hidayu.izyan.malah.atyra. <3

ziella.me.hidayu. (=

me and hidayu. (;
she's adorable laa. <3>

i l0ve them l0rr.camwh0re was funn.
(=
jiayi didnt wana take pictures with us.
but yea,she's the ph0tographer.
thanks to ziella's camera.
if n0t,
we'll be b0red in the artroom sehh.
great time we had.

oh hello.

sch was alright.
(;

to my amazement.
he ackn0wledge me?
hah.
he tegur me laa.
*smiling*

didnt thought he would actually.
(=

he said sorry.
aww.
isnt he so s0 sweet?
(;
im touched l0rr.
hees.

wellwell.
idk why laa.
but i really cant stop talking bout him.
i even t0ld mum abt him.
(;
told mum tt he had dimples and everitink else.
s0 yea.
mum was alright with it l0rr.

thenthen,
went f0r art after sch.
didnt want t0 g0 h0me early.

there was faziella,jiayi,nic0le,
malah,nina,atyra,zaidah,syairah,
hidayu and nadia.

did i miss anyone?
heh.
yea.

i didnt d0 my art,
in fact we were busy talking.
laughing and giggling ard.
& taking pictures.
it was fun though.
(;

cher wasnt there.
so we had our own FUN TIME.
hah.

horoscope for the day:

abundance of goodwill ard you n0w,
which is going to give u a wonderful feeling all day l0ng.
time that u spent in a group situation will
be full of LAUGHTER,HUMOR and HONESTY.
(;
great skill f0r sharing wh0 u are without coming
off as preachy or judgemental.
so g0 out and be yourself with ppl wh0 are
being themselves.
((;

ohh well.
i was home early.

theres training tmr.
at 4.
kinda lazy.
but i rather g0,
than staying at h0me.
hah.
(;

afta art.
saw him.
he was in sch?
heh.
i tink he went f0r trg.
(;

didnt want t0 went h0me at the first place.
but girlfriends want t0.
so i cant be staying in sch al0ne?
hah.
but nevermind.
its alright.
(;

s0 yea.
girls in art room.
ohh they were a great bunch !
((=
*l0ves*

okehh till here.
byebye.
ily hunney.(:
i miss ur dimples.
[=

2007-03-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

hello.

ntg much f0r today,

had maths test.
someh0w it was rather hard plus easy.
heh.

but i dunt tink i will pass.
and i really wana dr0p p0a.
gt n0 h0pe already sia.

well.
s0 yea.
today?
hmm.alright laa.

didnt expect him to say all tt sehh.
hahas.
its really sweet l0rr.

hati meletup?
hahas.

he was there too.
training?
keeper.cutelaa.

wellwell.
i dont want to update m0re laa.
hahas. aderlaa. sumone read my bl0g.
AND THEN disturbs me in sch..
i will update tmr.

* i need a new handphone.
sick of this one laa.
really.

hmm till here.
(=
byebye.
i l0ve him.
adek,we trust u !
tts why we confide in u !
heh.
((;

*dunt care abt wadd ppl say.*
i l0ve my hunney.
heh. (:

2007-03-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

the soccer babes.
ohh we l0ve cameras.

hello.

im d0ing my heymath.
its s0 hard l0rr.
wala0!

im having problems with studies laa.
ive been slacking al0ts sehh n0wadays.
haish !
catching up with everitink.
)=

hmm.
maybee i should just drop poa.
it suck l0rr.
i cant concentrate on it alreadyy.
ergh !

okayy enough of that.
its time to buck up laa.
midyears ard the c0rner. ]=

well well.
went over to watch b b0ys having their training just n0w.
didnt wana g0 h0me early.

he was there.
when pass his class, he was smiling.
hahs.
cute laa.
but when we watch the training.
i felt weird.
maybee he was just shy.
but it was alright laa.
(=

i understand.
maybe he feel uncomfortable,
with pe0ple ard..
i didnt thought he would be there either.
heh.

hmm.
-basketball.sh00ting?
cute laa.
he read and sh0wed nina th0se msg i sent him.
wala0 it pissed me off l0rr.
i was s0 like paisehh !
he say i sweet talk ?
ehh hell0?
lo0ks wh0's talking..

but lucky it was JUST nina and tyra.
if she was there.
i tink the wh0le werld will kn0w.
heh.
really.

we're g0ing out again?ohh im n0t sure.
hahs.

ohh yar.
otp with HIDAYU yesterday.
yea.it was nice.
(; u n0e,i n0e ehh?hees.

adek said he's a nice guy.
yessyess.
i kn0w that.
(:
he is !

thanks adek ! (;
i'll keep tt secret btw us k !

ohh im off f0r nw.
till here. MY HUNNIEST *****.
heh.
byebye.
with l0ves. (;

2007-03-25T19:20:00.000+08:00

green.heh.
i need you n0w,dear.[=

hellohello.

today was NOTHING.
at h0me sleeping.and finishing up hw.

okayy im lurving this song laa,
ride f0r you.
im b0red nw,write a lil of the lyrics here k.
its really nice l0rr.

:: but being without u, i cant imagine.
its just to cl0se to the heart.
and i wont stand it if we're br0ken apart.
im gonna stay d0wn and ride f0r you baby.

when you said tt we could make it through whatever,ever.
and to me it sounded like you meant f0rever,ever.
leaving was n0t an option.
in you is everitink tt im missing.
so give us a chance.

dont you dare tell me we gotta let it g0.
i dont wanna hear tt.
i just cant hear tt.
wherever you wanna take me,
i'll g0.
(=

okehh.
its nicee laa.

ad0re him.
<3
so much l0ves.

nothing much f0r today.
we're progressing.
ahhahas.

`mal, thanks .
u, g0 f0r it laa.
just d0nt give up.
please la.
u b0f are so sweet l0rr.
g0 !

okayy im off f0r n0w.
byebye. ((=

i dont want to be hurt again.please.
i miss you,hunney.

hugs&kisses.

2007-03-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

i dont want u to leave me.
il0veu.

hello.
just come back.
went out just n0w.
watched m0vie,stomp the yard.
it was great l0rr.
i went with him.
okehh.

we had the couples seat.
aww.
thanks f0r the treat dear.
i l0ve u.

`laps.
`cold.heh.
`m0vie.
`green? myslipper.earrings.and rubberband?
(like in the m0vie?) hahas.
he said tt laa. (;
`popcorns stuck sumwhere.
`mcd0nalds.
`h0ld hands..
`spectacles.
`cute?
`mp3,his handphone.
`im kinda jeal0us when i saw her pic in there l0rr.
`run cute?
`keeper?hahas.

the feeling was there.
im just worried sumtyme.
i dont wana l0se him.
really.

i l0ve him laa.
h0pe this would turn alright unlike
the rest.

he s0 cute laa.
with the dimples.
(;
he told tt he used to contact this&this girl.
then i was like okehh.
*jeal0us.*
hmm.

he send me back h0me.
thanks laa dear.
ily,
heh.

muacks.

okehh till here.
byebye.

i need m0re tags.
hahas.
(;

cant stop staring into his eyes.
i admit.
*l0ves.missedalready.*
*hugs&kisses*

2007-03-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

waiting patiently.

hello.

im exhausted.
well it was sport and arts carnival today.
hmm.
we gt the 1st,first placing, f0r s0ccer.
hahas.
i became the keeper.
it was like i wasnt doing anitink.
heh.
but i did had a few touches.
hahahs.

then in the 8 by 50m,
malah,izzudin,hema,shawn,
me,jianha0,mardhia,justin.
we nearly got first l0rr !
but we gt second instead.
but the timing wasnt good enough i guess.
tts why we didnt make it.

hmm.
i was kinda shy,
so i jump ard laa.
he was there l0rr.
so its like g0tta make my embarassment g0 away laa.
wala0 !

i run sl0w laa
i admit.heh.
the vide0 tells me tt.
hah.*prove shown*

took lotsa pictures.
ohh yea,the dance things.
it made us scream crazily.
hah.
cheering f0r dem.
nina and gang were great.
the pink costumes, were so synchr0nised l0rr.
[=
cutee though.

~nana told me he's jeal0us.
heh.
im olso jeal0us at tymes.
hah.

then after the wh0le thing we went mcdonald.
t0 eat.
(=

hmm.
went h0me,changed.and went out again.
staying h0me makes me b0red.
so yea.

then girlfriends accompanied me to hair sal00n.
okehh.
thanks girls.
(;

then we chilled at our n0rmal area.
heh.
'lepak'.
then head h0me at ard 7plus.
there's so many things to talk abt laa sehh.
heh.
really l0ads.
cant stop sia.
problems,and h0w to s0lve them.
advice givens.
`mal: g0 for it mal ! dont h0ld back. tell him. gO ! *winks*
`athirah: theres m0re fish in the sea. (; heh. and blouse,.hahas.lol.
`nina: stay gilerr, ure doing great with #13.all the best. *winks*
`zaidah:laugh m0re. menanti mr f mu..*giggles*

saw him passing again.
hahas.the same place.
(;
friends did called him and waved.
he was otp,so yeaa.*jeal0us*

hmm.
yea, he's so nicee laa.
cant deny that.

december.
impatient and hasty.
easy to talk to,though hard to understand.
easily influenced by kindness.
polite and soft spoken.
sensitive., yes ! veryy !
choosy and always want the best, ; yea,esp in shopping cl0thes.
changing personality?
attractive.
sexiest amg everyone.
has m0re than one bestfriend.
quiet,shy, and humble. yesyes !
honest and loyal.
rebellious when restricted.
too sensitive and easily get hurt.; yar l0rr !
get angry easily,but dont really sh0w it.
romantic on inside nt outside.
spendthrift.
fun to be with.
loves freed0m!. yeap!

hmm,
tomorrow?
ohh no!.
h0pe everitink g0es finee.
please.
(;

hmm.till here i guess.
im tired already.
*sleepy*

gO0dnights.
byebye.
wish me luck !
heh.
will update tmr k.
shylaa sehh.hahas.

l0ves.
him.
<3

2007-03-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

so glad,so please to see u.
(;
*euphoric,and blissful*

hello.

today was such a random day.
nothing much.

went sch,nearly late.
then had art class.
okehh.i skipped chemistry and poa class.
and tts bad.

we stayed in art class.
to help mr selvam with stuffs.
heh.
(;
he was there too,

hmm.my girlfriends.
during recess.
they was like kicking my legs,
asking me to notice things happening ard me.
hahas.
okehh !
thanks girls.
u n0e me better.
(;
h0w i tried to control myself.

though it was really sakit hati !
ergh !
i didnt want to see any drama happens so didnt pass them.
i admit i was jealous.
well she n0es bout it,
then?
must she be there,
wala0 !
okehh.
this is what happens when u gets so jealous.

hmm.
went home early.
we didnt have our lunch.
but we had our achievers during lunch.
so tt we could go back h0me early.

so we finished at 2 l0rr.
i went off early.
heh.

saw him.
okehh head h0me after tt.
but he was still in sch.
he had to go to the library.
(;

hmm.
so yar.
had my sleeps just n0w.
so n0w kinda fresh.

ohh n0w i dont kn0w what else to say.
ohh yar tmr we're having sports and arts carnival.
im participating.
but n0w i dont feels like participating already.
lazy laa.
i rather sit there and watch the people.
hahas.

well but we're already sign our names up l0rr.
okehh.have to..
gosh !
he said he'll cheer f0r me.
okehh !
im shy n0w.
heh.

hmm.
till here i guess.
will update m0re.

`im glad to kn0w him.
but afraid to l0se him.

(;

byebye.
l0veu dear.
(;

2007-03-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

hiding to look at u.
(=

hello.

ill make this a fast and simple one as possible.

ohh im so happy.
i got to play just n0w,
and we won.
4-0
against whitley.
(;
yay !
happy sia.
and sya told me bout h0w he tried to watch the game.
okehh.
(;
tts cute.

then we kept looking at each other.
but friends will always n0ticed.
hahas.
funny laa.

then lepak at kama.
he was there.
the headphones were so cute.
heh.

they saw him kept looking at me.
okehh.
thx girls for noticing.
hahas.

i didnt realise either.
but it was totally a giler thing laa.
hahas.
and we didnt dare to talk to each other.
walao !
hahas.

-the boxer.
hahas.lol.
okehh nvrm.

then we played this game.
it was really fun !
hahas.

hmm.
*i hate it laa.
im just getting jealous fast.
i dont know why either.
she dont have to do it on purpose right ?
haish !
why must there be her?
mabe like what atyra say:
"cemburu itu tanda sayang."
hahas.
okehh.
i cant stop looking at him l0rr.
i admit.

okehh till here.
im off.
will update m0re.
just cant wait to watch m0vie,
stomp the yard.wit him !
(;

bitches,` hatred laa.
okehh.i must control myself.
byebye.
i love him.
i really do..
(;

2007-03-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

i didnt even dare to look at you.

but i still miss u.
heh.

ohh hello.

today was alrite.
(;

but woke up a lil late.
reasons : late night calls.
hahas.
but it was funn talking to him.
i laugh a l0t.
hees.
he cant stop making me laugh l0rr.
with all kinds of j0kes.
hahhahahas.
lol.

he wants to feed me?
`like real.
he dont even dare laa to do that.
hahas.

i said : 'i last few'.
he heard wrongly and thought i said i love you.
it was kinda cutee actually.
hahas.
well it really rhymes laa.
hahas.
(:

okehh.
i didnt want many ppl t0 n0e.
but well,
theyre disturbing me laa.
but its okehh.
im alright with it.
i just dont want things to be like the past la.
(;
hope everitinks gonna be alright !
* okehh im using so many 'alright'.
heh.

hmm.
as for schs.
i need to catch up with the hws.
haish.
lots and lots of dem.
m0re tests, & more stress.
ergh.

after sch, there was the sports & arts carnival thingy,
soccer.
f0r the upper sec b0ys.
okehh he's team didnt get in.
but it was okehh.
at least they tried l0rr.
but the keeper.... (;
hahas.
rch home early today.

we're having a match tmr,
yishun vs whitley.

o0hyar.
he gave me a missed call today.
o0h wth?
nevermind.
dont come finding me back,when u've got no one.
im so sorry.

okehh2.
watching g0l&gincu.
syasya is so gorgeous laa. (;
adoring her.

hmm.
tts all for today.
i WANT things to get better.
((=

can i look at him without anyone noticing
tt im looking at him.?

hahas.

goodnites.
`loves&misses.

msging him
i cant stop smiling whenever i read his msges,
every n0w and then.

hees.
okehh im crazy.
byebye.
<3>

2007-03-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

*hugs&kisses.*

hello.

okehh.
im still not done yet with the homewerks.
heh.
okehh im so so lazy laa.
im n0t doing them.
hahas.

dont care already.
);

`sya, thanks.
we're m0ving on ryte? lets go.
say goodbye to sweet talkers. [=
they left us,with stupits reasons.

heh.

yea.
im not going out today.
and it suck staying at h0me.

and yah.
n0w i n0e he had a frenster.
ohh wh0 cares?

well well.
he did viewed me.
but i didnt realised.
heh.

ohh wow.
he have many m0re suitors out there.
tt really cud work out with him.

dahdah.
enough.
hmm.
i miss him laa.
my irresistible. !

yay !
`delighted.

ive put up neww pictures.
i just need comments.
[=
heh.

tmr schs.
the pr0's is i get to see him.
hah.okeyy.im being so bitchy here.
the con's is im n0t done yet with hw.
alamak.
ergh.

okehh.sya and sha.
just get things right btw the tw0 of u.
i tried to clear things up.
but it didnt seems to w0rk.
s0rry,sya.

sobs.

okehh theyre finee !
(=
good for them.
aww, sweet couples.

im off n0w.
(;

byebye.

but boy u n0e ur begging dont fool me,
bec0s to u its just a game.

and now u wana communicate,
go find someone else
and letting you go.
im l0ving myself.

im sorry.
he's just so irresistable laa.
heh. (;

2007-03-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

me and malah.

ohh hello.

so much homeworks to finish up.
and i need plenty of rest bef0re sch starts.

so can i not do the h0mewerks.?
im tired laa.
i jsut gt no mood to do the homeworks.
whats m0re,finishing ALL up.

i can only finish half of the karangan.
heh.

)=
and i miss him.
we cant msg,cos he's away.
he just went off today.
but n0w im starting to miss him already.
hahas.
and he will be back tmr night.
hahas.
(;

hmm.
ohh yar.he ask me to watch movie.
next sat.
hees.
i would l0ve to,dear.
heh.
sweetsweet.

okehh im off for nw.
need sleeps.
m0re rest.
(:

byebye.
i l0ve him n0w.
okehh laa.
ill stop here.

goodnites,irresistable.
*misses&loves*

i made the right choice,didnt i?
*smiles*

2007-03-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

my art piece.
my batik !

ohh hello.
i miss h0me.
heh.
i miss my bed,blanket,pill0ws.
hehes.
really..

and i miss him loads.
(=

okeyy.
so had tt art camp.
and n0w im bck at h0me.
there was so much things tt actually happen..
it was n0t so bad,
but it was tiring laa.

ferst day was okehh.
slept late, gossips.
there was s0 much to share.
esp with my problems,
heh.
they n0e laa.
(=

then he msged.
yea.
we misses each other.
sweet laa.
appreciate everitink he did.
(;
just so sweet.

hmm.
then we did our art.
then talk.
get to n0e m0re ppl,
with their craziness.
hahas.
esp with jiayi,faziella,shakirin,amalina.
they were a great bunch.
they made me laugh till my stomach hurts sumtymes.
hah.
its fun.

we shared ghost stories at night.
(;
i didnt really had a good sleep.
the floor was hard, like duh~
and didnt brought any pill0ws with me.
boohoo.

the last day,
the second nite,
i felt real tired.
waited for his msg till i fall asleep sehh.
hahas.

everithink else was alright.

`hidayu: yea. i missed you too.
thanks sweet.(;

he ask me out !
aww.
okehh.
(;
we'll see to tt.

hmm.
till here i guess.
mayb im going self study tmr.
alone.
hahas.
okehh then.
anyone wana accompany me?

okeyyla.
im off.
byebye.

2007-03-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

~"ive think it hard enough.
hope its the right decision made."

okeyy hell0!
today woke up early as per normal.
went for the attachment for the last day.
and well everything went smoothly.
(:
went to the intensive care unit: icu.
hm.
and we saw the girl, the one who went for the op.
yesterday.
the heart op.
she was awake.
(=
well it was amazing laa.
it was like something.....
i cant explain it.
so touch la.
she was so cute in fact.
(;
lucky she was okehh already.

hm.
then then..
okehh. we are going to receive the certificates in front of the whole sch sehh !
arrgh.its gonna be embarassing sia.
walaao.
d0wan laa !
paisehh sia.

hmm.
n0w getting ready to tt art camp in sch.
well just with my shirt and shorts.heh.
and im off.

gdbye blog.
but wait.
hmm.
as for the decision thing.y
ive decided !
irresistible.
im sorry, manis.
its just tt...
hmm.
nvrm.

u msged me to accompany u at h0me?
wat do u take me f0r?
ehh b0y, i have my limits laa.
n0w ure alone then wana find me?
when im alone?did u even find f0r me?
i may say i still l0ve u.
c0s im just being h0nest.
but n0w, i have to st0p all this l0veyd0vey towards
you.
maybe its time to realise.
im n0t f0r u.
im n0t those cheap girls u think.
maybe i once think we HAVE to be together.
but thinking through what you did to me
there's n0t much cared sh0wn?
u were just pretending.
you still l0ve me?
whats the pr0ve?
hmm.
i dunt understand u laa.
saying goodbye its hard.
but we have to g0 on our separate ways i guess.
im sorry.
didnt want things to res0rt to this way.
in fact, my heart was ONCE f0r u.
but it was the past.
just the past.
u were just using me i guess.
);
sobs.

maybe n0w i wana open a neww leaf.
dont wana be tricked by "another u'
i h0pe.
haish.

okehh,
i hate this laa.
totally hate leaving sweet memories tt ive been holding.
argh.
okehh.
enuff.
till here.
goodbye.

he said he's happy.
i h0pe he really is and not pretending.
byebye.

misses&loves.
*hugs&kisses*

mygumgums.

2007-03-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

i lovee hims.

hello.

okehh.
today had the trip to gleneagles hospital: for the nursing attachment.

when we reached.
we were all brought to watch the heart operation.
okehh.
first it was scary.
can u imagine we witnessed the operation ?
the patient was a lil chinese girl, aged 9.
it was a poor thing laa.
she had a h0le in her heart.
so yea.
pitied herr, in such a young age, had to go through an operation and get her chest cut.
in tt state ?
haisy0h.
its unfair.
well, then they drilled her ribcage, so tt it wud be opened up.
scary,
lo0king at blood oozing out.
thou it was sucha experience tt i cannot forget.

but we werent in the operation room laa.
there was like this glass see through at the top of the operation room where u can watch the whole room laa.
its kinda complicated laa.
but it was like " once in a life time thing "
after her chest was OPEN TO HALF.
we could see blood, her heart of course.
the heart was like moving, like duh ~
okehh.
it was real scary laa.
the nurses, doctors there were like all busy.

after watching it all.
we were divided into some groups.
split into 3.
my group watch the prematured babies.
they were so small and cute.
neonatal"

then we went to the maternity wards.
where the babies were..
okehh.
they were soo cute laa !
hehes.
crying l0ud, red faces.
heh.
the nurses feeding them milk.
it was cute.

then we als0 watch the engiogram,
where they insert a wire into sumone's artery.then to the heart.
thou it was scary. we get to kn0w m0re on it.
its really a great experience.
we had phototaking session to0.
it was awesome.

but it wud be great if we cud watch and see h0w a mother give birth,
but i dont tink we are allow to..
wells tmrs our last day.
and guess wadd?
im having my art camp?
man.
my wh0le h0liday week is packed up in sch?
okehh.
and it totally suck.
i just hate it.
i still wana have my sleeps !

till here abt my today.
it was quite tiring thou.

hm.
yea.
on saturday night, sumtink happen.
it was so unexpectedly.
and shocking.
didnt want them to kn0w abt it.
cos they will make a fuss out of it.
so yea.
he terpakser. so didnt blame him either.

but ive been tinking bout those two lately.
it makes me go crazy sia..
i mean.
they bof are nice and sweet.
but have to decide on one.
my mind cant decide.
my heart ?
i d0nt kn0e.
its hard, it s0 complicated.
h0w i wish , okehh.
no way.

nevermind.
irresistible and manis?
which one uhh>?
haish !
okehh.
he msged, but he didnt.
haish !

till here
cant update already.
tt camp gonna make me miss my bl0g.
heh.

okehh.
byebye.

maybe irresistible laa.
);
confused.

day by day,
i kept tinking bout u.
day by day,
i kept worrying bout u.
day by day,
my love for you blooms even more.
day by day,
i kept missing you.
day by day,
i keep wanting to see you.
day by day,
u make me l0ve u m0re.
day by day,
i dont wana leave you.

irresistible / manis .
*confused*

2007-03-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

the eyes ! (=
and my gumgums.
and dumbdumbs.

hello.

yea.
ntg much today.
just stuck at home.

the art thingy was cancelled.
and i woke up early, thinking tt the art lesson was still on.
it was so dumb.
till i rch the lift then malah msged me and said tt it was cancelled.

stupid laa.

but nvrm.
i was acelik all ready sehh.
but when i went back home.
i wanted to continue with my sleeping.
and my go back into my tinktink land. hehes. (;
but i just cant.
so i did some of my homewerks laa.
then followed mum to sh0p,
then when rch h0me,
continue with my sleeps. !
heh.

okehh.
so yea.
tts for it for my saturdays.
b0red laa sehh.

didnt went out laa.
changed to tmr.
so im going out tmr.
hehes.
(=
yeay !

hm.
till here.
byebye.
i.r

im pulling myself away from you so that she'll have her way to you
-- when you get to kn0w someone u l0ved was l0ved by another girl.

2007-03-09T17:52:00.000+08:00

olwaes missing u.

hello.

last day of sch,
and the h0lidays are here.

theres gonna be parents meeting later.
and i have to meet the principal?
like wth?

im a go0d girl.
my results?
n0t as bad.
tsk !

haisy0h.

all craps.
oh yar.
he msged.
*giggles.*
(=
never forget me?

ntg much happen f0r today.

juicy g0ssips shared btw us (girlfriends).
heh.

theres art tmr.
and im going.
(;

*sweets*

neww friends are l0ved !
hehes.
yea.
im LOVING my NEW friend..
s0meone special ?
hahas.
im not sure yet.

*angry+disappointed*

didnt expect ppl to talk bad behind my back.
well, i am what i am.
and nobody is perfect !
say what u wana say,'
by all means...

o0h im having hershey's
special dark.
it makes me high.
heh.

okeyyla.
till here.
and maybee going out tmr.
its been weeks since last went out with
my sweets".
heh.
okehh.
byebye.

nicee people are remembered,
sweet people are kept in heart.
but ure the special person whom i'll
always remember and keep in my heart.
no matter wadd.. COS URE NICEE AND SWEET.
*smile*

i tink *her loves *he.
but not sure.
well nvrm.

toodles.~

2007-03-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

o0h.im shy laa. (=

hello.

for today ntg much.
except tt sumone cant get off his eyes off frm sumone.
hahas.
cutee lah them.
but..
i dunt kn0w.
maybee they are just friends.
im not sure.

well. till here.
just b0red.
sch b0red t0o.
except girlfriends are turning me crazy.hahas.
zyt0n? hahas.
nonsense laa.
heh.

he's cute.
okehh.enuff.
btw tt basketball boy gt model student sehh.
hahas
.cute laa he.

tmr, have to g0 f0r parents meeting sehh.
man.
my results?
okehh.
nvrm.
will update tmr aites.
all the best t0 me?
heh.

niteynites. miss u laa. (:

: -her eyes brightened at the mention of him.

2007-03-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

cutee ryte?

hello.

the viv0 city trail just n0w was b0red.
didnt participate much laa.
it was a plain thing.
i rather walk ard there by ourselves sehh.

well tts all f0r t0day.
i tot i saw him just n0w..
i thought laa.
maybee it was him.
but nvrm..

hidayu, thanks fer tagging laa hunney.
yea.
as i said, i w0uld love to share,
but h0w?
hahas.

december- beauty

loves to chat. : yea, love talking.heh.
loves those who l0ve them. : yeap. l0ve everyone who l0ves me !
l0ves to take things at the centre. : hm?. n0t sure.
great in bed.
inner and physical beauty. : aww. am i? hehes.
DOESNT PRETEND. : yeap. i D0NT pretend,okehh !.
gets angry often. : yar. sumtymes..
a meaningful love life partner.
treats friends important. : of c0urse. all my friends are l0ve.
brave and fearless.
always making friends. : neww friends are l0ved to0 !
it is all about l0ve and fairness.
easily hurt but recovers easily. : easily hurt, but dont recover easily laa.
daydreamer?
horny but does fulfill.
opinionated.
d0es n0t care t0 control em0tions.
kn0ws what t0 d0, t0 have fun.
unpredictable.
s0meone to have cl0se t0 u.
extremely smart.but definitely the HOTTEST and SEXIEST of them all?
hahas.

okeyy till here.
byebye.

haters make me fam0us.

looking right through you.

2007-03-05T20:56:00.000+08:00

oh hell0.
make a quick one f0r today k.
ntg much f0r today.
well school was b0red.

ohh well,
readers.
can u please tag and tell me what i sh0uld actually d0?

ive been thinking it thru.
but i still cant make up my mind.
t0 f0rget him, or just let it be?
or just wait fer him.?

well.* the him is*
(refer to the entry bef0re this one okeyy)
ther's his name written.
heh.
okehh.
im tired n0w.
cant type.
my eyes are getting heavy.

byebye then.

~why does my heart feel this bad?

2007-03-04T12:43:00.000+08:00

ohh.sad carrots. )'=. sobs.

okehh.
an early updates f0r today.
ntg much i guess f0r today.
s0 it'll be simple and a sh0rt one aites.

s0 today,
gonna d0 sum sh0pping with mum t0day.
(=
yea.
and tt b0y just n0w was acelik cutee laa.
heh.
didnt realised he was acelik smiling at me.
hehes. =D

h0rosc0pe fer miss sagittaurius.

There is a l0t of l0ve coming ur way right n0w,although it
might n0t be coming frm the source you were h0ping f0r..
Y0u're in something of a quiet phase, romantically speaking.--
but there is a l0t of energy in the friendship area of ur life.

the pe0ple u ch00se t0 spend your free
time with are TOTALLY IN L0VE WITH YOU.--

and they will be sh0wing you this in
s0me VERY touching ways today..
remember tt you are l0ved and worthy of l0ve --
n0 matter what's going on in ur l0ve life.

aww.
i really h0pe s0mething go0d will happen t0day.

well, acelik it did,
just n0w.
but it was the sweet nothings laa.
"good morning sweetie."

ergh.
and after tt. he'll get busy with stuffs.
okehh.
well i dunt really care thou..
but i was kinda sh0cked when i received tt msg.
and the name: matan?
like okehh.
nvm.
still l0ves him after wat he did to me.
its hard laa.

okehh la.
till here.
so readers,
will update tmr.if im free.
to0dles.

2007-03-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

hello.

cutee ryte tt shirt.
(;
i n0e.
little miss naughty.
cutee sia.

okehh.
today went for art.
did batik.
reached sch a lil late.

had kfc.
slack ard.
with girls.

as fer yesterday.
02march2007

went to b0ys match again.at grange rd.
yea.
me,nina and mal went there by ourselves.
it was raining.
we was all wet.
heh.
we played the rain laa acelik.
and when we reach !
guess what ?
IT HAD TO BE POSTPONED. !
errgh !
all the games had to be postponed.
to monday.
and monday im not free to go watch the finals!
haisy0h!
but when..
i saw him, okehh.
nvrm.
its quite satisfying.
heh.
(;
o0ps.
shudnt have mention tt.
okehh.
he was there t0o.

yea.
after tt left with me,nina,malah, and atyra.
there was s0 many things tt was shared.
all the secrets.
hahas.
they was sh0cked thou,
wen i t0ld them'.
they didnt knew bout it mah.
i kept it f0r l0ng.
i didnt anyone t0 n0e.
just w0rried it'll destr0y this friendship.
im just deciding the best f0r me laa.
(:
they als0 did gave me advices.
they are the best.
thanks girls.
at least they understands.
(;mwah.
lovess.

okehh.
im just b0red laa.
staying at h0me fer the wh0le day.
grr.

its fading laa.
maybee i SHOULD just m0ve on.
okehh.
im m0ving on..*

my saturdays are getting b0red.
all i d0 is just sleeping, eating, finishing up my h0mewerks.
f0r t0day laa.

hmm,
okeyy then.
till here.
there's ntg else t0 say laa.

*dont f0rget abt us..
(;
aww.nicee s0nglaa.
byebye.
get naughty.
little miss naughty.

2007-03-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

hey.
it rained the wh0le day.
its very cold.
and i need hugs again.
heh.

hmm.
everitink else was okehh.
went for art.
(;
ntg much fer today laa.
quite b0ring.
just like my other day.

but today lessons started to get b0ring.
my eyes are getting heavy.
and whats m0re it raining outside.
making me feel s0 cold.
s0 its really nicee if i had my blankets and pill0w with me.
during lessons.
hees.

okehh la.
ntg much to say already.

yea.
like what nina say,its just false h0pes he's giving me all this
tyme.
nvrm.
its over. *aku bukan untuk dirimu, i guess.
);
sobs.

ohh yea.
tmr:
b0ys having match wit sp0rts schl.
all the best.
(;

they gt into the final.so its good thing.
im sure they'll need m0re supp0rters.
(;

I + U = untitled?

*a victim of a foolish heart.

kiss goodnytes.
hees.
byebye.

2007-02-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

how i wish my life will be as sweet as these..

hey.

part1
i cant t0lerate sum attitude ppl.
ergh.
i do have limits okeyy !

im nicee to them doesnt mean they can step on t0p of my head.
wh0 do they think they are?

~~patience?~~
had enuff already !

im always giving them way.
keeping quiet.
just letting them say whatever they wana say,
let them be laa.

well n0t everybodies perfect okeyy.!

hmmph.all the imitating suck !

okeyy.
*angry siak !

friends?
shud i call them as my friends?
they d0esnt even respect me?

yea.
like wat mum says.:
we cant just trust anyone.
they may seems nicee and sweet all outside,'
but inside, they can be very mean.
well mum d0es have a point there.
thou i dunt really take tt laa.
i mean i trust pe0ple ard me.
(;

part2
sticking t0 one is hard.
yea.
it all depends on h0w we are treating them?
haish.
if u dunt l0ve tt pers0n, dunt f0rce it.
c0s it wunt be nicee after all.

sacrifices.?
im still waiting?
but im sure if everitink is to change like h0w we used to be,
it WOULd be very different.
we arent gonna be like h0w we used to be..
thats fer sure..

well i dunt n0e.
im still h0ping f0r his turning back.
but its s0 stupid..

u come and u g0?
can u pls just decide?
its really makin me confuse..

th0u the mem0ries are shaking apart.
those little g0od moments are still kept in heart.
its n0t as easy as said laa dear.

yea.
you wouldnt like me back, will u?
okehh.
its finee.
i thought i could m0ve on easily, but i cant.
yea.
its hard.

maybee u have m0ve on smo0thly.
unlike me.
still h0ldng on to the plaster.
maybee i have to put it on my chest,
so tt it wud be healed.

decisions are still unrevealed yet.
haish.

i guess all your ships have sailed..
*u used to say, u wud put mine in ur heart.
i guess u've put mine on the ships. and not in ur heart already.

sumone else will replace me, perhaps.

i miss you so.

i h0pe ure always smiling,hunney.
(:

part3
okehh enuff.
well as f0r today, had our game vs deyi !
(;
okehh. it was draw.
2-2
it was raining.
and i was getting s0 cold.
ohh i nid hugs tt tyme.
hahas.
the field was so wet and muddy.
our boots was all heavy with water filled.
heh.

im gonna get sick.
after sitting in the rain for a few hours.
heh.
and here i am still feeling cold.
after tt we head to kama.
we slack ard wit them.
as per normal.
helmi still disturbs me.
by calling his name.
haish.
brought me back to old memories.
heh.
sob.

part4
ntg much fer t0day.
ohh yar !
we got a nursing attachment !
ohh its gonna be so fun.
we're going to gleneagles hospital.near orchard.
(;
ohh. excited sehh.
we're gonna be nurses.
heh.
(:
it gonna be during the h0lidays !
yay !

okehh. there's als0 art camp.
im sure its gonna be b0red doing art for the wh0le 3 days.
haish.

olrytes.

ohh i love his dimples. its s0 cute laa. (; heh.
okehh la.till here.
gtg.
wana eat
(;
byebye.

bearhuggingaheartshape.
aww isnt tt sweet? (=

2007-02-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

hello.

okehh. s0rry readers for not updating yesterday.
i was busy.
yea.
watched the game yesterday.
okehh, we w0n.
i mean yishun w0n.
we was crazy sh0uting, cheering fer them.hahas.
(:
it was fun th0ugh.

lessons was okehh today.
except tt i started to get sleepy during english.
err..

hm. yea.
went for art. ohh its quite fun.
(;
c0l0red my batik.
there's still a l0ng way t0 g0...
heh.
a l0t m0re to d0.

nid t0 finish up my preparat0ry werk sum0re..
s0 many things t0 d0 laa..

haish.
i really miss him loads.
i d0nt kn0w why..
after thinking it over and over again. i think
its pointless.
but here i am thinking wondering wishing hopin'
f0r his returning back.

when i know thats not gonna happen.
i n0e.
but i cant help it.
its really bothers me sumtymes.
i dont think he n0w have the same feeling like wadd im feeling ryte n0w.
haish.
lo0king back through wadd he did t0 me,
it was kinda nasty..
he's promises?
but...

it was just back then..
n0w,
things have to m0ve on.
we cant just keep lo0king back,.

well pe0ple change.
yea.
haish.
its just like hide and seek.
);

its only been 5 days since he last call me.
okehh.
maybee i think of it too much.
maybee i shud just let it be..

and h0pes for the best.
(:
it was all sweet sugared up.
but n0w, u left me Longing for u..

okehh.enuff of already,
tmr we're having match with deyi.
wish us luck !
h0pe we'll win.
(;

b0red0m !

im still loving him.
ohh !
(:
only if..
only if...
only if i accepted; *regrets.
nvrm.
let bygones be bygones.

okeyy then.
till here babes, dudes.
people.cutes.sweet.
handsomes. pretty's.
will update again sumtyme.
pe0ple wh0 tagged !
thanks.
l0veulaa. (;

ohh. i want tanned skin laa !
pweety please.
(=
hees.

go0dnites. (;

ps : i want you back,
f a l l e n .

2007-02-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

hello.
sunday morning.

im b0red ryte n0w..
here i am writing an entry.

yesterday went out wit girls.
yea.girls day out.
there was the chingay,parade of dream or sumtink lyke tt laa.
went to ::
t0wn,limescape,
wismaatria;forever21 .hula n c0.
fareast;-
heeren;neoprints.
then esplanade;chilled.
saw quite a few friends there,
malik,didee,hasyrul, and a feww otherss.

had candyfl0ss.
(;sweetsweet.

reached h0me at abt 12midnight.
wh0 cares abt curfews anyway.?

i didnt.
(;

o0h im real b0red n0w.
i nid $.
t0 sh0p !
o0h.the dress there was nicee laa.
wana get them'
ohh h0w i wish !
the printed tees was nicee to0.
pretty laa.
(;
and the adidas slipper !
g0sh.
cute stuffs.

okehh.
enuff of this.!
ohh!schools tmr !
can i not go..?
there's art lesson.
and im n0t done with anything yet.
im just getting lazy. really.!

yay! n0 achievers tmr !.
s0 will be reaching h0me early (;

well;
hm.
i dunt understand boys sumtymes.
do they really mean everitink they say?
or are they just pretending?
ohh !
);
it really confusing..
im just forgiving n forgetting.
being real patientt.
maybe its worth the wait.
*waiting fer miracles to happen.
hees.
(;
must have the positive attitude !
heh.

had ch0colate waffle.
(;
yumyum.
nicee.

o0h sins.
regrets.

okehh.
till here.
nid to finish up H0MEWERKS !
haish !

im so in l0ve with u hunney.

*waves.

-tuning to usah lepaskan...
<3 l0ves.

i z y a n . h e a r t s . _ _ _ _ _ .
*giggles.*

byebye.

2007-02-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

hell0.

today, yishun vs ahmad ibrahim, soccer b b0ys.
we w0n laa.
((=
yay !
hehes.
okeyy they was go0d.
keeper was great. (;
nicee games b0ys.

hmm.oh yarr.
*he called me?
i was kinda sh0cked.
plus happy laa.
((;
didnt expect to get tt call either. (:
mum knew abt it. t0ld her..
h0pes he called me again lerr.
thou i was kinda unexpect the call.
acelik i shud be angry wit him as he left me
but..
i cant . i still heart him okehh.
its hard laa.

okehh.
chilled wit dem at kama.
o0hkeyy.
mardhia and i had a real l0ng talk.
its been quite since we had a real2 l0ng chat sehh!.
s0 much to say, (=
its all b0ut pers0nal and b0ys issues laa.
okehh.
just between us.
(;

then malik and faizal came t0o.
okehh. missed dem sehh.
its been s0 l0ng since we saw dem.
(;
br0ught me back to th0se old mem0ries sehh.

hmm.
till here then.
will update again aites.

schools, b0red0m! hmphf !
okehh.

hershey,
special dark
l0ve it sehh. (;choc0lates. yumyum.

byebye.
b0ys?
special species.heh.
t0o special.
(; *

2007-02-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

cute rite? sweetness.

o0h hell0

hmm.dere's ntg to mention much today.its just the same thing happen again and again.ntg much.
watching takraw, nina dancing.
yea. they were great.

heh.

had blueberry ice blended.
then head straight h0me.

okehh. i hate teevee. st0p sh0wing exclusives."
hate it siak !
ergh!

okehh.it suck laa. ):

hmm.
till here.

i still miss diearr.
its still hard.

okehh la.
go0dnite. (:

my dumb-dumbs.??
15%healed.but it still hurts.

byebye. (;

2007-02-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

hell0.

i wana be his faverette hell0,and his hardest go0dbye.

ill make this entry a quick simple one aites.

so today.
maybee going out.
wna get sum outfits.
ergh.its been a l0ng tyme since i last get one.
yea.
((=

h0mewerks still not d0ne.
i mean not finished.
its half done.
heh.

im getting lazy.
very lazy.
(:

heh.

I dunt wanna cry a tear for you, So forgive me if i d0...

okehh.
till here then.

skewl starting tmr.
ergh!
so fast.
i still want holidays.
hees.

okeyy la.
byebye!

(;

sweetsgumgum (:

2007-02-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

hey.
today went east c0ast.it was like a family day.
hahas.

well family 'b0nding laa.
didnt interact much either.
i was spending my own tyme al0ne.
ntg much.

sitting and watching by the sunset.
cycling.
b0ys skimming.
the sea.
the tents.ahahas.
yea.
quite funn la.
had my mind at ease.
hahas.
the candyfl0ss.
and the h0t choc0late was nicee.
((=

hmm.
yea there l0tsa hws.
and it suck.
hate it laa.
h0mewerks.
ergh.
okeyy.
i just miss sumone.
so badly.
))=

0keyyla.
till here.
(;

byebye.

baby,am i d0ing to0 much?
i wish i was with him ryte n0w.
hahas.
okehh crap.
nytes.
(:

2007-02-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

ehh hel0.
well t0day had frenly with the greenview.
hm. we w0n. 4-0.
yay!
credits g0es to nana,nina and malah.
everyone was great.
thou i did fall..
hahas.
o0uchh.it hurts okehh!.

it was just a frenly match so n0thing t0 be s0
'kech0' abt laa.
then went off f0ll0wed cher taking the car.
hahas.
yea.
chilled ard.then cher send us all h0me..
it was great.

hm. sumones getting me sumtink special.
hahas.
i w0nder wadd.,
hmm..
hahas.

thanks laa.((=

tts all i guess/
thnks ms tan.
u rawk laa !
heart u!

hehes.
0kehh la.
gdnytes.
byebye!

2007-02-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

ell0!
hmm.its been a while since i checked my bl0g! hmm. i miss bl0gging.hehes.
well, there's s0 many things tt happen..

s0o2 many..

haish.
sad things.
btw happy valentines
t0 sweet c0uples,friends. and any0ne laa.

hmm.
sum ppl say valentines suck.
but sum are happy wen it cums to valentines..
hmm.
well i find it all the same..
hahas.
unless if u have s0meone special spending the day with u laa.
unlike me.
b0o ho0.
hahas.
s0bs.

okehh.
t0day achievers cancelled !
yey !
go0d thing.
hmm.
got a haircut.
hmm.
hahas.i l0ok funnie laa.
bluek.
neww hair..
((=

went t0 get prezzie's fer adek.n sya !
((=
h0pe they'll l0ve it laa.

him~
i t0t everitink will turn out well.
i didnt kn0w things will get t0 this extend.
i miss him badly laa.
but yea.
wad can i d0?
i cant f0rce things.
this is wat he want..
haish.
just have to let it g0.
haish.
its hard seyy.
hmm.
there's s0o many ...
"only if..."
tts been in my head.
only if i was spending m0re tyme with him.
only if i accepted.
only if...
argh.
f0rget it.
its been 3 wks since we last met.
enuff izyan !

th0se go0d/sweetsweet mem0ries are still stuck on my head.
just s0 hard to get them off siak !
grr.
n0t s0 easy laa.
maybe he can f0rget evertink but i cant.
why must he leave?
wad abt all his pr0mises?
was it all just sweet talking?

maybe u have m0ved on with ur life.
with ur busy2 life.
i t0t u appreciated me !
ergh.
i still l0ve u.
okehh.
im so0 in the ~ mo0d.
okehh i better st0p it.

"walk away-paula deanda"
its s0 nicee laa.
im g0naa remember u.

okeyy enuff is enuff.
let bygones be byg0nes.
shud i say all b0ys are the same?
but im sure there will sum cute nicee boy out there
wh0 will appreciate girls.
like me.
gr.r
i still cant get over it laa.
still waiting f0r him t0 cum back..

hah.
okeyy.
skewl was okehh.
maths was finee.
l0cus rawks.
hahas.
hmm. assembly was b0red.
hmm.
s0cialstudies test ! grr.
i did badly fer sure.
grr.!

all abt valentines:
r0ses,lollipops,secret admirer,teddybears.
hahas.

hmm.
till here.
admirer?

garnier (skin naturals)
PURE

hahas.
okehhlaa.
ill st0p here.
will update when im free.
go0dnytes.
still h0lding on to the pink panther plaster u n0e...
byebye.

~valentine hugs.

2007-01-14T20:14:00.000+08:00

hey!
yea.
so today went o0t. to nati0nal library wit ...
hmm.
it was funn!

real funn uh!
thx fer spending the tyme wit mie !
((=

the lipgl0ss.hahas.
the praising part.
mickey m0use hand.*urut kan* ((=
there was s0 much tt happens laa.

hahs.
funnie, crazy laa dier !
((=

dierr is sucha swit person!
((=

he's so0 baik laa.
sucha a sweet sweet mem0ries sia !
well well. we are jeal0us of couple !
hahas.

err.!
cute cute pe0ple !
hahas.

im in l0ve.
hahs.
we to0k pics.
but i suck!
hahas.
but it was swit uhh !
((=
hehes.

handph0ne, the c0de sumtink wr0ng. but suddenly,
magic sia.
hahas.
((=
k nvm.

till here laa.
t0day was funn.
spending my tyme wit him!
((=
thx dierr.
eheheks.
i mean dear...
((=

k laa.
t0odles !
will update again !

2007-01-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

hal0!
well well. today stayed at h0me.
hmm. it rained!
im left c0ld.hehes.

b0red at h0me. stuck at h0me!
bluek.
it suck!
but nevermind.

o0h yar.

he had his fo0tball thingy. but didnt get in lerr!
s0 sad laa!
wasted. im sure he's go0d.
but nevermind.. i guess everitink happens for a reas0n.
i didnt want him to feel bad laa.

i guess n0w he's resting at h0me..
im sure his tired ryte n0w.

(= its okae.

well well.
hmm. did sum of my h0mewerks.
s0me were quite hard. didnt finished them up!
hehes.

okae laa. till here
wana watch teevee.
hehes.

to0dles!
((=
go0dnytes.

2007-01-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

hal0!
well well.
t0day rained the wh0le day !
im c0ld.
heh.

skewl was finee.
fer maths, teacher was absent.
then had our PE.
t0ok height and weight:
height:154.hahas.
weight:38
ishk.
im so0 like light!
hahas.
but i eat many2 sehh!
wala0!

k n0w must start eat a l0tx!hhehes.
get taller!
((=
so0 wat else happen ehk!?
ntg else i guess.
o0h.
yea
*shid: i gt no matair k! tkm0 anih0w! go delete ur tag! hahas.u craziie ! ((=
no hard feelings yah!

well.
add neww songs in mp3.
yea!
hehes.
fergalicious.
going crazy.
and berdua lebih baik!
hehes.

hmm.
b0red at h0me laa!
haisy0h!
)=
wats m0re its raining!

hmm.
mendak laa.

sya thx fer listening.hahas.
u n0e. i n0e.
hmm.

k laa.
till here.
will update again if im free.
to0dles~
((=

i h0pe im n0t d0ing to0 much..
if i calls u craziiee means im all crazy over u !
[=